Moon made one of my paintings an entry on her blog, which was sweet. I figured a few people would click my name expecting an art site..sorry, it aint. But, there's another painting I did. You can click it to make it bigger. It was part of a bunch of paintings I did for some short stories I wrote. The background is a photo I took and farked with, the girl is painted. Some people think that's a self portrait of my own youth, but, it's not. I was never that cool. It's actually my cousin Sandy, from memory. Sandy died young in a car wreck and I don't think she rests well because her family buried her Christian against her wishes. They're a bunch of holy rollers and she hated that. I make her a big stick Pentacle every year and put it on her grave, just to let her know I think they suck. Sandy left five kids behind, she had her first baby at age 13 and was a good mom. She got pregnant and married to escape her religious family. It was all very sad and still is. She and I were great friends and I still miss her.*
I got woke up at 4 am. By the friggin' TV set. I am so sick of that thing. Every since I bought it, it goes through periods where it turns on by itself and changes channels. I am a true insomniac and I take Ambien when I've had enough sleeplessness. Lack of sleep can make you goofy. I took two of them last night, it should have been enough. But, no..a few hours later the TV comes blasting on. It startled me and then I got pissed off. It went through infomercial channels and the volume increased until I couldn't ignore it. The plug is behind a damn high boy, I can't reach it. I don't know if the TV set has a spirit attached or if it's my own energy that causes that. An electrician friend of mine said he can't find any problem. Anyway, it's stupid, but, it doesn't happen all the time. Maybe it is my own weird energy.
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It's going to be one of those days, I can tell. I went out into the garden in the dark and waited for the day. The sun seems to be fighting the atmosphere. It's pretty out, kind of dreamy looking. I think the sun will win. The sun always wins eventually. I hate the sun. People who don't live in the Midwest can't imagine how brutal it is. It's because we have so much humidity with it. You can't go outside in the Summer for more than 10 minutes before you feel like a block of cement is sitting on your chest. Even the kids, with their boundless energy, felt it yesterday. They jumped on their trampoline for five minutes and then sat like lumps, sweating. They finally gave up and went inside to drive their parents nuts. And that was a rainy day in Iowa! But, for right now, it's still bearable and darkish.
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So I gage the day by the morning and it's light and energy, but, today is weird and I am robbed of sleep and I'm pissed off about it. Something is talking to me, but, there are too many of them today. I suppose I sound a bit psychotic. It's a truth though. You can't be shitting rainbows all the time just because you deal with the paranormal. Sometimes the voices suck, they all run together and they sound like static. I know what they want. They all have something to say and today is a work day. It sometimes starts like this when I'm going to be busy at work. It's like they (the dead) can't wait to get started. They make me confused and pissy. But, I know it will stop when their people find me. It always does. But, they also fill me with such energy. I have a dozen things going at once and my mind is on overdrive. That's why I think maybe it's me that causes the TV to go bonkers. The lights keep blinking too. Par for the crazy course. Oh, good morning to you...ah, the coffee is ready.
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DD, what's going on here? I leave for a few weeks and DD is back up, theres full heads of cabbage, and lovely paintings? Wow, You're so talented!!
My company is leaving tomorrow, I can't wait to get caught up.
The other site broke so I moved back here. Nice to see you again.
it's has humidity problems in ohio too but nothing like iowa and i try to convey that but it doesn't sink in! thanks for writing that so it reaffirms my belief that iowa has more humidity issues than ohio!! 90 degrees and 85% humidity are 2 different animals in ohio and in iowa!!!
it was a bad breathing day here in ohio yesterday and it wasn't even humid! i just got up and it seems to be day 2 of it...sigh...this year is the worst year for allergies/asthma/breahing....
i bet it is your energy too that does that to your tv! you should try to video that when it does it and then play back to video to see if you hear or see anything....
Iowa is a land of miserable extreme weather, people don't understand. It's very jungle like in the Summer, good for growing, not for living.
Ironically I have a cousin named Sandy who passed away in a car crash and has a restless soul too. She was pregnant when she passed away. My nephew is some sort of medium and was 2 years old when she passed away and has since been visited by her frequently. He says she has a hard time accepting she was dead and often cries because she can't be with us. He is still very young and at an awkward teenage phase and asked her to please accept she was dead and to try to get some rest. I think she may have accepted that or decided to let him be for a while because she hasn't come around recently. But he thinks that she'd come back if he contacted her. I wonder why she can't rest? It makes me sad. Maybe it wasn't her time to go yet or she just didn't want to go to whatever beyond that's waiting for her.
I love that picture Pat. I love it that you put her on the right-hand side of the tracks which tells of forward movement. I read that years ago in some dated old tome of info.
Right side of the tracks means you'll find the door, climb aboard and move toward your goals. Left or wrong side means your stalled and reject forward progression.
I think by making that pic your were trying to help her move on to a more peaceful place.
I hope your day inproves and the voices settle down.
I use the right side a lot and I love asymetry. I don't know why. But, I like your idea.
11:32:00, my cousin comes back to her daughter. And I can talk to her when her daughter comes for a reading. She's often angry.
Sandy, I mean. Not her daughter. The daughter is just frightened by it all. Their family has a lot of tragedy.
Does she ever say why she's angry? Does she scare her own daughter with her anger? My cousin is always just sad that she can't communicate with us.
I always use anon, but I'll start leaving my name lol
~Jess
You know, I am still pissed off about Sandy. Those assholes who raised her fucked up her life. And even in death they won't let her be who she was. They had the nerve to stick that big praying hands bullshit right on her grave. I hate them for her.
When her daughter is in danger, she's angry. The daughter is claravoiant and won't accept it. Complicated. Spirits all over. Sandy is..like, fighting them in her daughters house. She still hates her parents.
It's a well known fact that those that manipulate energy often have energy "side-effects" When i've been "sitting" more than usual, my wireless modem turns itself off, and I have to restart the whole wireless network from scratch (atually my husband does ;). I thought it was coincidence at first, until i tested it out. Maybe try turning the tv on at will- see what happens :)
I turn my modems signal off too! OMG I thought I was the only one. Sometimes I have to calm myself and redirect energy to get a connection. I'm so glad you posted. Thanks.
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