Gowd, this is so trashy I shouldn't blog it, but, you know me. Lissa runs in and out between my mom's house and mine on Sundays and there's nothing I can do about it. I don't let her go over there until 11 to cut down on the dysfunction, but, today Guntown exploded. My mom decided to tell all her problems to a five year old. They got in a fight and mom locked her out of the house "for disrespecting her." Lissa was crying and screaming that she wanted her stuffed fox, Goldie, and Tuwella had it locked up in there. Lis won't go anywhere without Goldie. So, I said, calm down, let me go get it for you and then you stay here with me. Mom wouldn't unlock the door. I didn't know what to do. Lissa was screaming. I finally asked Lissa what they fought about and Lis said my mom told her she doesn't have a car and can't go anywhere and that I don't ever take her to the store. I'm like wtf? She needs to tell a five year old this crap? And it's a pack of lies, which Lissa called her out on. Lissa stood up for me and mom wasn't having it, so she locked her out. Then mom comes over here, with Goldie (hostage?) and begs Lissa to come back. My head was about to explode. I said, you know damn well I take you anywhere you want to go every Tuesday and every check day and you need to stop telling the kid your problems anyway, she's five! I told her to give me Goldie and leave Lissa here. Enough already.*
When Lissa's mom showed up (with her little cousin) she ran out to meet her and the next thing I know Lissa's screaming that Tuwella is on the floor and "something's wrong!" I ran over there expecting to call 911 and my mother is having a crying fit. Lis and her mom left and I just looked at my mom sitting there having a major sobbing jag with her head in her hands. She pulled this crap in front of the kids. I stood in her doorway and said, wtf are you doing? She started sobbing that I don't love her. I'm like, are you kidding me? She said, "I've lost Eric and I've lost Bobby and you hate me. I have nothing to live for." Sob, sob. I was not moved. I don't know what's wrong with me, I think I have lived with this shit too long and I'm so tired of the total wreckage that is this joke of a relationship that I can't be moved anymore by her antics. It was very clear to me she was half playing me. She has such control issues that she thinks she can force me to love her. I don't love her. I don't even like her.
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My old crazy aunt came in then and started screaming at me "Look what you're doing to your mother! You're killing your mother!" Then she tried to slam the door and hit me in the shoulder and pushed me in the chest. I was just standing there thinking, omg, this is so fucked up. I looked at them and said, you are some fucked up mess. Thanks for putting this crap on a five year old, are ya proud? Then I left.
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Lissa has seen worse, her own home is total dysfunction, but, I like to think my house is a place that's calm. I don't want her left with the old lady and I've said so, but, I can't make that rule and her mom leaves her there when I'm at work. You'd think she could behave herself for an hour on Sunday mornings so that Lissa can have family. But, no. She had to drag the kid into because I won't fight with her. I have ignored her for months.
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So now they've called in the rest of their dysfunction retarded relatives and my other aunt is over there..the one I hate. I hate that bitch. She's going to stir up more trouble. I'm killing my mother? How am I killing her? I just live in my house alone with the door locked. I never talk to them, I mind my own business. How is that killing her? My mother thinks she can control me..to the point where I do not want her in my life. I've lost cars, jobs, bank accounts, relationships and a paid for farm because of her ridiculous behavior. It's been a life time of shit caused by her and her control issues. She thinks she can force me to love her. That's the bottom line. Family aint family when they screw you from birth. I'm taking a pill. No, two. I'll bet there's a prayer meeting going on and soon they'll be knocking. Jesus can't fix this, I want to be left alone. I don't think that's too much to ask for.
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i grew up with a similiar although not as crazy mother. she had issues with her back that she would make into something way bigger than it was.she would moan and groan and had a bell by her fucking bedside that she would ring if she wanted something. can you imagine your fucking mother laying in bed ringing a bell like you and your brother are chamber maids? i ignored it of course. she really used up most of the sympathy i was born with. i don't feel sorry for many people and i definitely don't fall for bullshit.
No, Valle, I cannot imagine the gall of a mother with a bell beside her bed for her kids to do her bidding. Actually, I can, but, I don't want to because it makes me sick and angry for the child you and your brother. Some people think that because they gave birth to you, they own you. Forever.
And there will be people on here who tell me to just move. Where am I supposed to move to? I could move away and then I'd never see Liss. I can't move anyplace in town, I have no money to buy a house and the apartments for low income people are dangerous cracked out shit holes. I've already lived there and it was awful. Meth fires and gun fights. I'm stuck here next door to HER. Unless I win the fucking lottery.
I feel so bad for you, Pat! I understand how trapped you feel. At one time in my life I felt trapped. It's a mind numbing, horrific existence. I wanted to die but couldn't kill myself because I had small kids who needed me. There didn't seem to be any way out of the situation. But I finally got my opportunity so I bugged out of there with my kids. I feel that you, too will get your opportunity one of these days. In the mean time just know that we all care about you and worry about what you're going through.
Thanks, Matilda..I'd like to hear about what you went through. You can write me if you don't want to post it. People just don't understand that moving away from her won't stop this. She always finds a way to fuck with me. I'm supposed to feel bad today and guilty and horrible. I feel nothing. I was born into crap and this is the way it is. There's no end to it.
Ugh that would give me a big time anxiety attack if I knew a bunch of lynchers were coming for me... put on some brass knuckles :)
i bet it was like watching people you don't even know when she was having a crying fit...like 'who the fuck are these people'???
just stand firm "you cannot make me love you"....
and trying to manipulate a 5 year old is seriously fucked up...if she had any sense, she'd know that....fucking low...
let her cry away and pray to baby jesus....fuck them!!!
just ignore it the best you can, take her places on tuesday and just try to remain calm with an occasional blow up to release steam...
:hugs:
I shouldn't even have blogged it, but, it's just so fucked up. I have 90 year old woman beating on me and an 80 year old sobbing mess screaming for me to love her. And the day started out with me just sitting here drinking coffee. I will never figure them out.
Keep ignoring her. Keep strong. I didn't love or like mine either. She's been dead 5 years. About a year after I started ignoring her she sent me letter at work. I never opened it. Finally threw it in the trash a few weeks ago.
escrow
I feel sorry for the kid. You are as crazy dysfunctional as the rest. That kid should be taken away and placed with a family that will give her a chance in hell.
And I think most of your stories are half truths anyway.
You don't disclose the reasons your Mom got away with taking away your property. Did you spend some time in a psych ward?
it's always about HER...she doesn't give a shit about your feelings or lissa's.....
the more she does, the more she proves that....
buy her a tricycle and tell her that's her car....
It sounds like she is manipulation the rest of the family and telling them lies about you...or maybe they just can't see the person she really is...whatever it is, I feel so bad for you DD, cause I know you are a good person...peace :)
Manipulating not manipulation!
Why don't you get a job that supports a better apt. away from your mother? You just enable them all. Tell the other side of the story Pat...
Oh, escrow, I have a letter story. I'm so glad I keep things. Once, about a year before he died, my son and I got into an argument and he told me he knew the "family secret." I was like, WTF? He told me his Grandma had sworn him to secrecy, but, she had actually raised him from birth. I went off to "party" and left him as a newborn. Can you imagine how I felt hearing that? Nothing could be farther from the truth, but, of course, kids don't remember being babies. I had him every day and every night, I never left him with anyone, even for a night, until he was school age. In fact, she left! She moved to Florida and I kept her letters with all the dates on them. I gave them to him and said, who left Eric? Who left? She's such a liar. My son was shocked and he apologised.
Not a tard, what job would you like a 57 year old woman to get in a tiny farm town who's economy has died a long time ago? Really, what job would you like me to get? I can bartend, sub teach or work at a gas station and be paid less than I make now. You're just trouble waiting to fuck with someone. You ARE a tard.
No. You are just always complining and bithcing about your life and your mother, yet you do nothing about it. You have obviously been around this most of your life as your last post tells that you let your mother babysit your son. You have chosen this life. 57 isn't dead! You like this attention you so clearly seek. And you are very sick as evidenced by your bloggings. You should not be anywhere near a 5 year old-or you mother and most likely her own mother. Do something productive and save the little girl.
I think Pat tells plenty of lies herself. You, substitute teach??? Doesn't the whole town know you are mentally unstable?
You don't disclose the reasons your Mom got away with taking away your property. Did you spend some time in a psych ward?
*****
That's from "not a tard" who is a tard and an asshole. Want me to tell you, smart ass mother fucker? Okay, here it is. I was not in a psych ward. I was in a university hospital with motor neuron problems far from home. I was not expected to live long. For reasons I don't know, I did live and recovered use of my legs and arms. They call it remission, I'm told. I came home in an ambulance to find out my mother had traded my house to my cousin for a dump in town. Everything I owned was dumped in a pile in the peice of shit unliveable house they put me in. I was sick and fucked. I tried to fight it and one of the cousins son's burnt the farmhouse to the ground. Gone. No insurance. My mother said she did this "for my own good" because I shouldn't live out in the country alone. I could never rebuild, I thought I wouldn't live long. I ended up moving to a low income place that at least had plumbing. It was rough and I lost my house. My mother basically took my house and gave it to her favorite nephew. She figured I was dead anyhow, so fuck me. For my own good, of course. Any more question, asslick?
I'll be deleting you from now on, creep. By the way, your sentance structure is shit. A ten year old could write better than you. It must be hard being a total ass hat.
Not a tard: Things are not always that simple. I wish life was tidy and neat and could be wrapped up with a pretty bow. But it can't. Unless you've lived through the types of experiences DD has and have had some real hard knocks in life you probably wouldn't be able to understand. It's easy to tell someone to pull themselves up by the boot straps and fix their problems. But nothing is as simple as it seems. Everyone has a story to tell... it's just that some people have been unlucky enough to have a whole lot of bad shit happen to them. If you don't understand that then why the hell do you come here?
Tard comes here because Tards life is shit too and it makes them mad that I have a blog where I can blow off and have some responses from intelligent people. Tard is too stupid to make a blog. Poor stupid Tard. Waaa waaaa Tardo.
Pat,
Another intelligent response-NOT!
Why would I want a blog?
How's if feel Tard, to be deleted? Good? LMAO! Tard is obsessed with an old lady's blog. Gowd, Tard, go masturbate to real porn. Stop your obsession with me. It's pathetic.
Tardo is in love with you DD. Send them a picture.
I'm enjoying this.
Where the hell did all these trolls come from?
The trolls are on Gosselin withdrawal
escrow
LMAO escrow. That was a good one. I made the fool a post. Tard can masturbate there.
It is so messed up to take out your shit on a child. Poor Lissa.
Your mom is a manipulative bitch. If it's any comfort, I'd like to tell you about how my sister is the same. She stopped talking to me last year because she just decided I was mean to her (WTF?). I think it stemmed from the fact she talks to our dad and I don't. Of course she talks to him, he just like her, a liar who believes only his version of history. Anyway she started into me, mocking me because I might need surgery (seriously...mocking me for needing surgery. Crazy bat) and then had a screaming fit when I told her that was an awful thing to say. Then she ran off and locked herself in a bedroom and wouldn't come out. I'm sure she tells all her silly friends the fight was all my fault for being mean and not talking to our dad, and I'm sure all her silly friends agree with her about how she has such an awful sister who won't even talk to her own father. (Nevermind that our dad is nuts. My sister tells everyone he's wonderful.)
I guess what I'm trying to say here is that if my sister was crying and saying I ruined her life, I wouldn't give a fuck or feel bad, and I don't think you should feel bad for your mother when she says the same things. She has twisted everything...why feel bad for her? It's just more manipulative bullshit!
Alison, your sister sounds deranged. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one with crazies. My old aunt trying to beat me up was the crazy cakes topping though. She didn't even know what was going on.
fuck you "IS a tard". If you don't want to hear this stuff go elsewhere cunt.
I hear you . I too had a lazy fake invalid mother who constantly played for sympathy. She supposedly had everything from a ruptured disc to brain cancer. All faked. By the time I was a teen i was exhausted from her verbal/physical abuse , fake illnesses, and having to live with her in her personal hell crazy town.
I took away the broom she was trying to hit me with and told her that if she ever hit me again I would mess her up. I was serious and she knew it.
I seldom see her, she lives in another state. and that's the best!!
I wish often for a secret button i could push to send horrid relatives so far away it would take them years to work their way back.
I am stuck where i am too for financial reasons and because i don't want to abandon my daughter who is in a really messed up relationship.Now that guy i would send to Mars without a spaceship.
I endure those i don't love for the sake of those i do.
People that take stuff out on kids make me crazy. Your mother-thing sounds like a narcissist and a borderline personality. I just read a book on borderlines and wow. I'm so sorry that you have to put up with this crap. Her karma is sooo bad. I wish I could do something to help you :-(
Ehh, I'll be fine. I just don't know what she wants. She expects me to say I'm sorry for ignoring her? I will never say I'm sorry again when I haven't done anything.
one of my mother's favorite sayings was "i don't deserve a daughter like you" meant that i wasn't good enough for her....me and my sarcasm (which i got a phd in by the time i was 4) would say "no, you don't"....she had no clue!!!
you could just tell your mother she doesn't deserve a daughter like you...
Miss Tia, your mother is a bitch supreme and she didn't do a mothers first job, which is to protect you. She deserves a piano to fall on her head. No. Make it an outhouse.
Sorry you have to put up with all this crap. I used to think I was the only one even though I knew better. Reading helps me see I am not alone. I am going to draw from your strength and not put up with everything anymore. Hope things will improve for you.
It's hard. I just don't want to play anymore. I'm disgusted she drug Lissa into it and I don't know how to stop it.
is there a way if lis' mom drops her off and you are at work, that she could take lissa to where you work? probably not ideal, but now that your mom know manipulating lissa strikes a nerve, she'll keep it up....
well dd, my mother didn't have me to be like a regular mother, she wanted someone to love her unconditionally and who she could totally control....unfortunately for HER, she got ME and i had a subconscious understand of her before i was 1...she tried and tried to get me to say 'mama', but when i started at 9 months i said the cat's name! hahahaha...that still pissed her off 20+ years later....YEAH!!! :D
i think the fates gave me strength....i am 'super aries' with 5 planets in aries!
Oh my dear DD I'm so sorry for such an
ugly spectacle she displayed in front of lissa.
Try to keep Lissa at your house and if she insists
on going next door go with her. Your mom is
awful after the big fat lie she told your son Eric.
I wouldn't put anything past her. Man even at
80 she still able to krazy up your life and she has
help in the form of your 90 year old aunt her sis ?!
WTF don't these two take up knitting or some
type of hobby instead of always messing with you.
Ignore her or just throttle her I don't think she's
worth going to prison for oldelady abuse so
just ignore her and tell her for her sheninigans
today that tues dec 1st chauferribg is cancelled !
Tell her if she doesn't play nice then to call a
$$$$$$ cab$$$$$$$ or hitchhike to dollar general !
Tell her and give her a taste of CONTROL !
Same thing for aunt Juanita and if she doesn't
like it tell her Kiki said too bad & next time
don't push hit and lay hands on me !!! Kiki :)
I hope your lil granddaughter can forget this bs
all the crap they have no shame to display how
fucking krazy they are to a lil 5 year old child
her great grandchild too no less ! Krazy bitch!!
Oh and to the troll who keeps bugging u today
this is for u asshole. FUCKYOU !!!!!! -Kiki
Oh, Pat, no 5-year old needs to be privy to this. I am so sorry, my heart goes to Lissa, but she does seem to have a head on her shoulders, that sweet child.
I'm hurting for you.
I grew up in a similar situation. Stand firm through those fucking crocodile tears.
Your mother can't have you anymore, you're out of her reach.
Talking about dragging kids in, man do I have a story for you! My dad is and always has been a a self centered alcoholic who would take any drug he ever got his hands on.To give you an idea, he has had about 17 DUI's, been cut out by the jaws of life twice, fallen off a 2nd story balcony, broken his neck n a wreck... yes, this MF has more life that a cat! He lived a party life while my mom tried to clean up his messes. Anywho, about 4 years ago when my son was about 10, he had went on a drinking/drug binge with his so-called friends and stroked out on his bedroom floor. My mother didn't know he was stroked out, she thought he was passed out/possible od'ing. Anyways, my son had stayed the night with his beloved grandma ( I wasn't aware my dad was on a binge) and she had my son help her drag my half dead stroked out dad across the room and told hm not to tell me!!!!! UGHH!!!! It was bad enough the shit I had to endure as a child because of my fucked up dad and now my son!!!! Some people just don't think about the well being of kids. They are to fucking selfish.
Holly crap DD and poor little lissa. I'm so very sorry for what happenend. Your mom should never ever talk to lissa like that. I feel so bad she locked and took her goldie.
Knowing me I probably would of knocked in the door if I have to with my fist. Bloody or not and smacked her. Lissa doesn't need the same abuse you all went through. All she is doing is repetting history. Lissa is a sweet little, loving, carring girl who doesn't need your mom.
Not a tard- You're not a tard,you're just a low life evil bitch who doesn't have a fucking friend in the world who gives 2 shits about you! All you are is a horrible person,with no redeeming human qualities what so ever. Why is it hard for you to comprehend that everyone hates you & prays nightly that you are sterile or that your POOR kids have been taken away from your demented ass.
Not a tard(Hate to break it to you,but yeah you are)-
You feel sorry for the kid? You need to concentrate on those little half wits running around your house,each with a different dad! If anyone would know anything about spending time in a psych ward,it would be your crazy ass! Maybe if you'd spend as much time on your numerous problems & less time worrying what other people are doing,your life wouldn't be the shit hole it is right now! For the record,Dish doesn't have to disclose shit with you bitch! Who the hell do you think you are? Get a job you fucking low life!
I've got great parents,so I don't know how you feel in that aspect,but my husbands parents were really messed up. His dad died in 1989 & the last thing he told my hubs was "So do you know who your real dad is yet?" His mom is still alive,but it's been years since we spoke with her & that's how my hubs would like to keep it. I've got a huge family,that loves him & if anyone deserves a bit of unconditional love,it's him. He's a awesome hubs & dad & we're dedicated to loving him enough,that he never feels short changed.
I'm so sorry you have to deal with this.
I feel bad saying this, but I wish your aunt and your mom both sudden death. Just so you and Lissa can start to have a decent life.
I thought my mother-in-law was bad.
She manipulates, and I always have to watch that I don't get sucked into her lies, but she's not on the grand scale of your mom.
Christina
I have awesome readers.
You can't figure them out because you are not like them. They know you aren't. & everytime the situation is NOT about them , they make it where it is about them, of course. It's always gotta be about them. Dayum, my husband was so pissed off on Thanksgiving that he wouldn't even sit with me & my kids at the table & eat. I even got out the white tablecloth, the china & silver, the stemware. But for some reason he was like "Fuck all of you". So, we had a nice dinner w/o him sitting there ruining it for us. We hate him and we have no idea what the deal was. But the day was NOT about him. so he made it like it was by acting like an asshole. Out of nowhere. Yuck-O! Sadly, when he dies, I think all my 2 kids will remember about him is the cussings he gave us all & his bastardish ways. They are adults now and tolerate him but we all hate him. We loved that he decided to not eat with us. We thoroughly enjoyed his absence. It was great. A lovely meal. Very classy & elegant. Unlike him.
Rox
10Doll...love you girl!!! You are great. Give your husband a hug from me. He deserves one. And so do you!
Rox
Ya' know...if I don't like somebody I don't talk to them. So, I don't understand someone troubling themselves with navigating to DD's site and then reading & commenting. Why? There's no point. Is it someone that knows you? I remember you said you can see everybody's URL's. Some ppl have too much time on their hands, with their hands. LOL
Did any of you catch Hoarders last night? While watching the show all I kept thinking was "this woman is behaving EXACTLY like DD's mother". She was such a wretched bitch. I've caught the show a few times and felt sympathy for everyone until last night. I kept waiting for someone to say "SHUT THE FUCK UP TUWELLA".
Your post is exactly why I live thousands of miles from my family.
When I was about Liss' age my drunken father beat the crap out of my narcissistic mother. ( Match made in Hell) She asked me 30 year later why I didn't help her. I was like....Ummmm cuz I was a kid and afraid of you both.
Damn! I'm gone on vacation for a week and have a lot to catch up to, I see the trolls are back. I'm so sorry Lissa had to go through bullshit that should not be made her business. She's a five year old! I'm glad tho that she told the old lady off. What a way to traumatize that poor baby.
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