Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Open post

You know that photo in my header? I have it as wallpaper. My mom saw it, leaned into the screen and said "What is that?" I said, it's the Yule tree. She said, but what IS it? I said, it's our Yule tree. She said, "but, what is it supposed to be?" I said, it's Lissa's lighted tree, the one by the clothes line, it's our fucking tree." She said, okay, but, I still don't get it. What does she not get? It's a fucking tree with fucking lights in the fucking snow. Some one ask Jesus to explain it to her, pleeeease.
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So what's on your mind today.

85 comments:

miss tia said...

anxiously waiting for my grades to get posted!!! i don't think i'll know what they are til tomorrow or thursday!!!

i hope your mom doesn't have that tree cut down now!

Wondering said...

I am wondering why there is so much nastiness in the majority of your writings. Why are you not able to express yourself without being so vulgar. You have some interesting things to say, I will admit, but I just wonder what makes you say such awful things?

Dirty Disher said...

Wondering, I don't have to explain myself to you, but, I talk like I talk here because it's the way I talk. I'm wondering if you can express yourself without being sanctimonious and holier than thou?

Dirty Disher said...

Yay Tia! Oh, that tree is fake or she probably would.

MuserMommyinPA said...

Okay, I don't know if it's an age thing or what. My husband's grandmother is 95. A few years ago we had pictures that we took on vacation and one had a drawbridge in it. My husband, god love him, spent an hour trying to explain what a drawbridge was and how it worked. She just kept saying over and over, "I just don't understand." Sometimes between you and me I don't think she wants to understand. I am not being mean, I think she wants to engage in a conversation any way she can. I think your mother thing has different motives though.

Dirty Disher said...

Muser, I swear I don't know what the hell? Did she not understand a cropped pic? Details? WTF? She's like that all the time.

Dirty Disher said...

Oh, and she complains that no one wants to talk to her and she won't wear her hearing aid. So she just says, what? huh? What? All the fucking time. It's just irritating.

Brig said...

Oh Pat, my mom needs a hearing aide and won't get one. I know what you mean about huh, what? Annoying.

I am so tired of people trying to tell other people what and how to post. As it has been said over and over. If a blog is not for you find a different one that suits your tastes. There are so many.

Anonymous said...

I can't hear either. My kids have threatened to get me that hearing thing thats shown in that TV commercial "Bingo!"...LOL. It looks like Bluetooth. I wont wear that! And I don't Bingo anways. hahaha. But when I am OLD I will have to. I am already missing alot. But 1 ear does Not work at all. Can't help it. But thats a funny story Muser. I think at my gae 52, I have already begun to forget things. Wondering, whats your deal? If you don't want to read this blog. It's easy. Just don't come here. End of problem. Doesn't the header say something about "bitching" in it? Sometimes bitching it out helps keep one sane and from lashing out at those close to home. Dayum. Get with the program or get out.
Rox

Dirty Disher said...

Rox, I'm 57 and yeah, I KNOW things start to go, but, I'll be dammed if I won't wear a hearing aid for my daughter when the time comes and I need it. My mother can not participate in a normal conversaiton and she is baffled by the fact that people are tired to the bone of trying to make her hear them. I think it boils down to this..she only wants to hear herself.

MuserMommyinPA said...

I think she (hubs g-ma) has a little streak of narcissism in her. Maybe I just think it's a little because I am married to her "golden" grandson as his cousin puts it. I don't really get the full treatment, just little flashes here and there.

Just to give you an idea, they call her "the boss" at the nursing home. My husband called her and someone must have come into her room to get her for therapy. DH said she yelled at them for interrupting her while she was on the phone with her grandson and by the way the ruffle on the bed spread is all wrong, so fix it!

She is also hilarious about whispering, she actually talks loudly in a whispering tone. I think it's the hearing. Another story was that DH & I took her over to his cousin's house (one of her grandchildren) for a visit and after an hour she "whispered" that she wanted to go home already. He was across the room and she could clearly be heard. Some of it is hearing, but I don't think she really cared that his cousin heard.

I think she's mostly harmless but we do get a laugh out of some of her antics. It actually sort of makes me smile thinking about her. It makes me believe you can't change people and thankfully she isn't overtly mean or harmful so at her age, she can get away with it.

I can B said...

Rox, that thing that looks like Bluetooth doesn't work. I had to take it out of my ear to hear . I was hoping it would help me be able to hear the tv late night with the volume on real low.

I once spent at least an hour trying to explain to my X MIL the difference between an area code and a zip code. She insisted they were the same. She didn't like me and didn't need attention, she just didn't get it.

I also think she just enjoyed arguing and trying to make me look like an idiot.

Dirty Disher said...

I can B, Jeeemeiney crimmis. Tell her to look on her butt, that's the area code. LMAO.

Dirty Disher said...

Muser, imagine her thinking she can run your life and make all your decisions. Yep.

MuserMommyinPA said...

Sorry Pat. DH's G-Ma can be mildly frustrating but I cannot imagine the intrusiveness of that level. Positive thoughts coming your way. Happy Yule!

Anonymous said...

Do you really want to know, LOL.

First, I am not close to my Mom at all. She and my step-dad raised me if that's what you want to call it. They had a child together so my brother and I became the outcasts. Anyway, half sis lives with parents, rent free, has a built in babysitter for free, eats free, etc.

Well, my mom was diagnosed with breast cancer about a month ago and had a full mastectomy two weeks ago. My problem is I don't feel sorry for her. Sometimes I wonder if I even love her.

The other thing she does that pisses me off is that she is constantly borrowing money from my poor grandmother who barely gets by on Social Security as it is. Unfortunately, my grandmother can't say NO to anyone regarding money. I bet my Mom has "borrowed" over $5K from her, but let her nephew, my cousin, borrow any amount and she gets furious. It makes NO SENSE at all! She's even gone so far that if she asks for money and my grandmother says she doesn't have any, my Mom will go looking through her checkbook. My grandmother can't come up with hiding spots or she'd probably hide it from herself.

~Palmetto Girl

Dirty Disher said...

Palmetto Girl, the elderly get financially abused like that and it pisses me off. I wish you could report your mom for taking your grandma's money. It's not right.

Nissa said...

Risser Pisser turns 16 years old today at 2:53p.m. I cannot believe I have a 16 year old! Oh and some dirtbag kid named Brian sent her flowers. Her 1st flowers on her 16th Birthday, sheesh she just turned 16 and it's like they know that now I will allow her to date(well group date only but still)

Nissa said...

Palmetto Girl,
You can call your local Adult Protective Agency anon and report your Mom. They will make her account for every dime of your Grandmas money and provide her an advocate to help her with her money. Elderly abuse pisses me right the fuck off, I see it so much in my job!

Sole` said...

I am so happy that my crazy Aunt and crazy Uncle will not be at Xmas this year. Loving it! More cooking for me, but well worth it. My aunt tries to turn every situation to be about her. She divorced my uncle and 5 years later when he was just about to move on and started to see another woman she pounced again. Her retirement fund was about to go away and she freaked. Now 2 years later she is still bitching that she can't get away from him. NO family drama this year. Yay!

Dirty Disher said...

Thank you Nissa! I hope PG sees that.

Dirty Disher said...

Sole' congrats on the loss of the crazy. LOL.

Dirty Disher said...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY RISSA!!!!!!!

Anonymous said...

DD & Nissa,

My Grandmother would NEVER turn my Mother in. Even if I did report it, she wouldn't do anything about it.
She did tell me that she's taking every extra penny she has and giving it to her other daughter to put in a bank acct that my Mom knows nothing about. How sad!

Oh, one good thing happened today. Obviously I'm not like my Mom, thank God, as I LOVE to do things for others. Every big holiday I make cakes, cupcakes, or treat bags for the employees where I work. It does take forever, but I enjoy it. THis year I made them all a white trash mix (chex mix stuff), ritz with p-nut butter dipped in white chocolate, chocolate covered pretzels, and chocolate chip cookies. I never expect anything in return. This year though our maintenance guys, who don't make much at all, all chipped in $5 a piece and got me a $70 gift card. I thought that was so sweet!!

~Palmetto Girl

Angie said...

I'm so excited for Christmas, it can be hit or miss for me some years, but this year feels special for some reason. All my kids will be there together at the same time and we have great plans. But...

I have a brother that has a lot of issues, not the least of which is a drinking problem. He is alone, completely and yet, every time I try to reach out to him, he craps all over me. Blows me off, gets defensive, etc. Mostly he's ashamed and I know that, but it sucks. So...

I will invite him to Christmas because if I don't, I'm the uncaring bitch. He will blow me off, like he always does and my day will be in part, ruined. I will continue to watch for him, hold dinner for him, etc. And the tough love approach? Doesn't apply. Both of our parents are dead, it's only us, he has no wife, no children. I can't stand the thought of him being alone.

miss tia said...

angie i dunno if this is a feasible option or not, but invite your brother and if he doesn't show, don't hold your dinner; later in the day take him a plate of food though to let him know that he was missed and you were thinking of him...

Wondering said...

DD,

I truly did not mean to come off that way. It just seems that you have somewhat of a gift and why you feel it necessary to use such vulgarity, when I know you have the intelligence to express yourself without talking like a trucker.

I read along and find myself cringing at times, and of course I do not have to read here, it is my choice, but maybe the trolls would leave you alone if you used less, colorful language.

It is only a suggestion and I didn't mean to offend. However, I do get offended by your language at times.

To the other poster offering up their opinion, I was merely trying to have an open dialogue with the owner of this blog and no one else.

Just hate to throw the bath water out with the baby. Pat, thank you for listening and again, I was not meaning to tell you how to run your blog. Peace.

shmedelle said...

I just saw on ROL that Michelle Duggar went on a crying spree at her local convenience store because, *gasp*, the store was trying to get a license to sell beer.

And this is while she has 50 kids at home and one in the NICU.

Even though the Duggar's are wacky-religious, I couldn't despise them because I thought anyone with an army of kids who is still calm, patient and never yells---is okay in my book.

Not anymore. WTF? If you don't want beer in your house then don't buy it.

.....
Wondering,
I was just wondering what makes you so fucking sanctimonious? I find it quite vulgar of you to ask DD what makes her say such awful things, because by asking that you are insinuating that DD says awful things and I don't agree. I think she's honest, funny, expressive, and eloquent.

Nattie said...

Pat I love your blog, nastiness, goodness and all. It's real. Maybe Wondering needs to look in the mirror its answers.

Nattie said...

...for its answers....,

miss tia said...

if wondering wanted to have a dialogue they could have emailed you....

and what the fuck is up with telling someone you are offended by their language? ooooo....we'll all stop swearing?! FUCK NO!

don't read it...that simple....

back to 'real things...

michelle duggar freaked out??? maybe she's having some post-partum depression issues?

shmedelle said...

michelle duggar freaked out??? maybe she's having some post-partum depression issues?

I think that there TLC show has hidden some of their extreme beliefs, not all, but some. Beer?
Tia, I know you are in Ohio...down by Millersburg where the Amish live is totally dry. I know because I was camping down there and tried, unsuccessfully, to buy beer. LMAO! When I asked the clerk where the beer was she looked at me as if she had seen the devil. Or, a foul-mouthed, vulgar--Pat! LOL

Yes, TLC showed the wacky Duggers at the Creationism Museum. Scaaaaaary! But, I think it's shitty that they keep poppin' out those babies I mean Buddies for their girls to raise. That aint right.

Just Wondering said...

Schmedelle,

I read a lot of the blogs, and currently have noticed a surge of fighting. It seems as though more slurs are thrown then ever before, name calling and insults. I was just trying to figure out.

You offered up a nasty response which does not surprise me. However it was addressed to DD.

Why are so many of you so quit to fight and take a defensive stand? Is it because you like the blog warring? Surely not!

Is there a reason so many people like to fight on these blogs that I simply do not understand? I am trying to figure it out as all and don't feel I should be attacked by someone I am not even addressing. Does that seem fair?

I have already stated that I enjoy many of DD's postings, but while reading along I have to admit I am cringing at times.

Heidi said...

Nissa,
My best boyfriend sent two dozen yellow roses to me on my 16th birthday. I found out later that he made a major deal of love for me.I found this out when it was too late. I fell in love with my husband. I think I knew that he loved me but I did not feel that way about him. He was my best bud..like my brother.

I want a fucking cigarette.
I say that every once in awhile when I really want one. It has been about a month and a half now. Hubs got rid of my favorite ashtray and I dont even own a lighter. It is for the best.

Classy Lady said...

You make an excellant point Wondering. I like reading her too but would not want anyone reading over my shoulder cuz you never know when Pat is going to go off with the white trashed potty mouth. (BTW, my words not yours) And the other blogs are just as bad. Don't throw tomatoes at me, but the only place left to have a civil and classy conversation is Baby Mama's. I know you all hate her, whatever, but those are ladies on that blog, so what does that make the rest of you?

Heidi said...

I read Pat every day. She types the way she speaks in real life. That is what makes her familiar to so many people. She does not put up any airs like she is better and she certainly does not edit or delete our posts because they do not fit her agenda. When she does delete, it is because someone speaks disgusting things about Lissa. Pat, as long as you want to type it..you will always have us to read it!

miss tia said...

the fighting starts cuz of trouble making TROLLS! if you really were 'wondering' you could have sent DD an email...instead you started A PUBLIC conversation and you expect everyone to but out....go fuck yourself....and isn't it INTERESTING that someone named 'classy lady' answers your post using the same language/tone as you?? dual personality acting up today?? or just want an imaginary helper today? i bet you are the troll who's been lurking here and now are trying to play nice so santa doesn't leave you a load of coal....

if you are not the troll trying to be nice then go to the censored internet were butterflies and unicorns run in a rainbow river and frolick in the valley of lollipops....

nissa---happy 16th to your daughter!!! hope she is doing much better from her accident!

schmedelle--never been to millersburg but i know where you are talking about...they have amish up in the garretsville area but i think they are menonites [sic] and when the kids reach about 17 they let the kids go wild for a year---and they drink! i saw a bunch of amish kids drinking outside a mcdonalds once up there and it was funny--and yes, their house and buggy was tied out front!

Mimi to 3 said...

Hey Classy Lady -- go fuck yourself and go on back to the biggest idiot on the block's site -- old BabyMama. She is one sick prick. If that is what you call class you seriously need to get a dictionary. As for the other 'ladies' on her site -- of course, they are her sock puppets, just like you.

miss tia said...

a clASSy lady would not make feeble attempts at insulting people who read here....

Dirty Disher said...

Wondering, I think you're a troll in disguise and I'm not playing. Bye bye.

Heidi said...

I have a question. Do you all text with your friends and family? And if you do..do you all pass dirty jokes and pictures back and forth?

My friends send me some of the dirtiest stuff. OM Lord. LOL They call me the prude of the group. Some of the stuff I had never even heard of..let alone seen.

Dirty Disher said...

Class Lady, you ARE wondering. Idiot fucked up troll. Bowel Movement, go home to your boring shit hole.

Dirty Disher said...

Can't put nuthin' past Tia. :)

Dirty Disher said...

Angie, youre a good person. I guess you can stand him for one day. My brothers fucked up too so I know how you feel. I just took him a sack of Yule presents and he acts like I'm an alien taxi driver.

Dirty Disher said...

Barbara..LMAO! Can't fool you either, can they?

miss tia said...

thanks DD!!

they, i mean IT, does that a lot...post something, then post after it as someone 'else' supporting whatever BS they just spouted....they think they are so clever...and they are not....

shmedelle said...

miss tia,
I saw that documentary, "Devil's Playground", about the Amish kids getting to drink and even have sleep-overs with the opposite sex before they commit to join the church.
The Amish make nice furniture and quilts and their food is yummy, however, now that I know about them being the biggest culprits of puppy mills, I will never put another dime in their sick pockets. Dateline did a hidden camera on it. (It's on youtube: Millersburg puppy mill. We just adopted a pup from the shelter because our dog just died....

Hey, Wondering....take it easy, and Merry Fucking Christmas!
Okaly-dokay-do?

shmedelle said...

Oh miss tia, I tried to leave a comment on your blog....I love what you did with your side door. So pretty. Can I steal that idea for next year? How did you get it to stick on the house?

Dirty Disher said...

Tia, now that the Gosselin slaves have been taken off TV, Baby Mama is shitting herself silly over at her boring dead FAN blog. She has no one to talk to so she comes over here to dildo herself.

Theresa in Texas said...

Today is my son Jackson's 4th birthday. Earlier this year he was diagnosed with a mild form of Autism, plus ADHD.

Today we went to Wal-Mart and usually he is pretty good, because he loves to shop, but today there was too many people too much noise and so Jackson started screaming and hollaring trying to drown out all the chaos. I was so glad that I didn't get dirty looks from people, cause I usually do when he does that.

I really need to get him a pin that says "I'm not being naughty, I have Autism, Please be patient."

But right now he is happily eating the pizza he requested for dinner and watching "The Cat in The Hat"

Shelly said...

Yes, its gonna be a girl's weekend. Me, just wondering and classy lady are gonna take a road trip to PA, break into the mansion and chew all the crotches out of Kate Gosselings' underwear!
tee hee!

miss tia said...

shmedelle--did you just recently try to leave a comment on my blog? i have comments open for everyone again, but they are screened...let me know if it was today and what the issue was and i'll fix it!!!

my side door----i put nails in the frame about every 18" or so....above the frame over the door use to be a little roof (Way before lived here and the holes for that were still there, so i used a couple of those to put nails in for the top of it...

i took 2 9' pieces of the evergreen garland....one on each side and had them meet up top...i secured the garland to the nails with twist ties (huge roll at home depot for like $2 and you cut your own size!!)....THEN i tied all the ornaments onto it!! made my own little clusters and secured them with twist ties...then i put on the bows....i am really pleased with my side door!!!

when we got the 60mph only one side came unfastened and i re-secured it and it then faced 60mph winds on/off for another 24 hours with no problems!!!

i could never watch anything about puppy mills, i am too much of a sensitive soul for that....i don't think all amish are like that though, so i couldn't ostracize them all....they do that up north of here....

miss tia said...

DD---i wonder if baby mommy has a kate dildo??? would that be a red spoon?

Dirty Disher said...

Theresa, Lissa has Chiari, so I know how those looks go. People are so mean to kids and they can't help it! Agggg. That pin is the best idea I've heard in awhile. Do that!!!!

Dirty Disher said...

Tia, that bitch has a case of red spoons shoved in there.

alana said...

DD,
You are one in a million. No, not even a million, because there's NO ONE like you. I think you're GREAT!

I was just wondering about people who "wonder" about the motives of others... (and this isn't a "Dear, Just Wondering" post so pls. don't reply.)
Probably because I, too, was born from a certified BPD, NPD, et.al. Nine-Months-Mother-Thing, I inherited a bit of her paranoia, except I call it Extreme Sensitivity. I wasted a lot of time worrying about (wondering) other people's opinions, thoughts, motives, blah blah blah, as they related to me. Finally, a really sharp person helped me to relieve myself of that horrible habit and I almost never do it anymore. Now, when I start to go to hell over assigning motives where I have no business being, I ask myself "what is it about ME that makes me question, doubt, suspect, x,y, or z?" Voila! I almost never "wonder" about others' negative motives anymore, real or imagined. And I almost always get an answer that gives me a little more insight into myself and my own motives.

Totally unrelated to the above, it drives me NUTZ how many people type "NOONE" instead of "NO ONE." Like everything else in life, there are grammar and spelling rule exceptions, too.

Thanx for the space, DD!

lisa k. said...

Wondering said...

I am wondering why there is so much nastiness in the majority of your writings.
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I am not being nasty when I say this but...that is what is so great about DD....she is just keeping it REAL! She tells it all, the good, the bad, and the ugly. That is why people like coming here...

shmedelle said...

miss tia,
It was the other day that I tried to leave a comment, perhaps I fucked it up, not surprising.
Oh, so you say you adhered it with nails and twisty-ties? Duh!!! I'm not an imbecile, I swear! (I guess I was thinking about my door is surrounded by brick.)

Theresa in Texas,
I love, love the name, "Jackson." My 4 yr old goes to special ed preschool because she had brain surgery last April. She was in a wheelchair all summer, and I hated the stares, because she is the sweetest kid, but when people see a wheelchair that's all they saw, which is such a misrepresentation because she is so much more than that. She was also shaved bald with a huge incision, people stared. I say, Fuck 'em. But, a little girl at school asked my kid what that funny thing was on her leg,(a brace), since she is a kid, I wouldn't flip her the bird, but did tell her it's a "special purple butterfly accessory for her leg, like a band-aid."

Good for you for getting the diagnosis for your son, so early. I know that took some doing on your part. My son (7th grade) has ADHD. It doesn't always have to be all bad, he's really funny, thinks outside the box... My (41 yr old) brother has had it all his life, and he is a really successful electrical engineer.

Pat, you crack me up!

iambriezy said...

100 bucks says that Wondering ain't going anywhere. Anyone?

shmedelle said...

I think Wondering got shoved onto the first bus headed for "Holier Than Thou Town".

miss tia said...

sorry schmedelle...you asked how i did it and i just went step by step!!! i am tired, please excuse me! i dunno about a door surrounded by brick...isn't there some wood in the frame? and then to make an arch above, but a nail in the frame in the center of the door and then twist tie something that is about 8" high and forms a Y to hold the upper part of the wreath...i can visualize the piece, but can't think of the name of it....

i think the comments are fixed on my LJ....if you try again and have a problem, please let me know!

shmedelle said...

miss tia,
O.K. now that I read about the wood frame around the door, I get it. I am an imbecile. Thanks for patiently, step by fucking step, explaining how to hang a god damn garland. I feel dumb, and I'm not even really tired. Sheesh.

Anonymous said...

Coming in late to the Amish convo, but what the FUCK (that was for wondering-classy bitch) I'm here now, so ...

We are in northwestern PA, and our community is HUGELY Amish. On our little dirt road out here in the country, my house is the ONLY non-Amish house on this road.

They are not the holier than holy that they seem to want to try to project always. The kids tend to be just like normal kids, ma & pa leroy go out of town for the w/e, and those kids are throwing a party, drinking, smoking, swearing like the best of us! I'm sure BabyMama's crew would be truly offended.

The Amish, at least those that I've come to know, are pretty much like regular people - some are good, some are bad. You treat them kindly and you'll receive the same in return.

miss tia said...

i'm just a step by step type person....most of my conversations are with children and pets....must explain step by step!

and professors wanna know all the steps to things too....

you are NOT an imbecile!!! there are no imbeciles here, except the trolls!

Anonymous said...

I worked for 10 years in an organization that supports developmentally disabled people of any age, from birth through death. They had an amazing program for autism spectrum disorders. And for anyone who hasn't experienced it first-hand, it is truly difficult to conceptualize.

shmedelle said...

dhwh1993,
Yep, PA and OH (where I'm from) have big populations of Amish. Now, normally I am not one to generalize, however I feel safe saying that it is common knowledge, and for good reason, via evidence, that the Amish treat dogs like they are nothing more than rocks and dirt. A commodity is how they look at dogs. If you have the stomach, google Oprah puppy mills on youtube. It features the PA Amish.

Yes, before I was clued in, I thought they were just living 1800's style. But, even so, they (some)do use modern conveniences, when it suits them. They do have a horrible rep for puppy mills because as part of their religion they believe in this order: God, man, animals. They do not distinguish between a slug and a dog, they look at puppy mills as their right as the top of the food chain, and fail to recognize the inhumanity. Perhaps you know more about them than I do, but I'll stand by my claim that they are animal abusers!

valle said...

Hey Classy Lady ,
Is this vulgar or classy, just "wondering"?
Fuckity fuck fuck shit balls piss!

Dirty Disher said...

lol Valle, naudy.

Theresa in Texas said...

shmedelle

It really didn't take much on my part, I mentioned it to the Nurse Practitioner that my son sees at his 3 year check up and she set up an appointment with the Psychologist and that was that. He hasn't been officially diagnosed as ADHD but he is being treated for it as per his psychologist. He said he couldn't officially diagnose him as ADHD until he was 6.

I had actually seen a lot of the signs of Autism in him, but even though I took child development classes I didn't put two and two together. I knew that something was going on but I couldn't put my finger on it.

What upset me the most was people would tell me that there was absolutely nothing wrong with him and that he was a normal little boy. This was coming from people who only saw him for just a little bit and was not around him 24/7 and did not see everything I saw.

He is being medicated for the ADHD though and it has helped him out a lot. I know some people don't agree with medicating but I don't care what they think.

10doll said...

3:46 Wondering- It's posters like you & your maggot filled friends that talk shit & then bitch when DD shoots it back at you. You don't like the vulgar or nasty comments? Then don't come here & read them.

10doll said...

Wondering- My hubs is a truck driver & on behalf of him let me say FUCK YOU!

miss tia said...

hahaha 10doll....this just popped in my head: breaker breaker we got a fuck and a you heading towards 'wondering' highway, clear the lanes it's coming fast!

going to bed, very tired...

and to all a good night!

Christina said...

Since this is an open post. . . here goes.
My father-in-law is dying of cancer. He has had the diagnosis for over two and a half years and has fought it tooth and nail. He has been in and out of hospice since a week and a half before thanksgiving, and he is back in one now. A really nice one.
It is really hard to see him slipping away, and have him comatose some days, and other days (like today) have him recognize all of us, and be able to carry on a brief conversation. We have all said good-bye too many times. I know I have to work tomorrow, but I really want to stay home, and go visit him during the day. I requested call, so that I could stay home but just go in if they need me after the start of the shift, but at least three other people requested before me because of the holiday. I don't usually whine about work, but I wish I could just take time off in this instance. Not for the holiday, as none of us are really in the mood to do anything, but to be with my FIL, husband, son, and MIL.
I know it won't happen, and that there are probably a few people requesting call that will call in sick if they don't get what they want, but I feel better just saying that this is what I want.
Of course, if he is passing tonight, I will not go in to work tomorrow, but he has come so close, so many times in the past few weeks, and then gotten better.
We are all exhausted, and distracted, and I look at all the bags of flour, sugar, brown sugar, packages of butter, etc. that I bought to bake with, and know that there is no way. Those neighbors who have already left treats for us, got fresh eggs today. They seemed happy enough, so I guess it's okay.

10doll said...

Wondering-
When you & your family have been attacked the way DD has then you may form an opinion,but until then STFU! If you're SO offended by the "colorful language" then find another site to read. Nobody is making you read here. Now if you wanted DD to be the only person responding to your comment you should have emailed her & not post it out in the open.

Anonymous said...

Christina-

Im sorry you are gong through this, and the holidays seem like the worst time to have to....I lost my dad to cancer 4 years ago, and I am still heartbroken, but I know at least he is free of his sick body, and that is the only thing that gives me comfort really. It is hard to balance work and family, and times like this it is really hard...I hope things get better for you.....snowbunnie

10doll said...

DD I sent you a email

Dirty Disher said...

LMAO at 10 doll and Miss Tia. Ahhh, life is good.

Dirty Disher said...

Christina, that's rough. I am so sorry. It just stinks that they won't let you be on call. Hang in there. I'm sure everyone understands about the baked goods, no one expect that from you at this time. Again, I am so sorry.

Christina said...

Thank-you Pat and Snowbunnie. I really do appreciate your kindness.

10doll said...

Christina it seems like you've got a lot on your plate to deal with. I will keep you & your family in my thoughts.

Mich said...

Wondering- It is quite simple. What you find offensive and what DD finds offensive fall into completely different categories. This blog is what it is and probably won't change. So if you are the peaceful individual you claim to be, you will find that there are really only two options. Either you leave it all together or you take the blog with a grain of salt, read what you enjoy and skip the rest.

Christina- I feel for you. May you find some peace in this time of turmoil. :(

As for me, I am about to wrap up and go to my parent's house for a few days of down-time with good food and restfulness.

Happy Holidays to all of you!

Dirty Disher said...

Have a good one Mich.

c said...

10Doll and Mich, thanks for thinking of me. I appreciate the good thoughts.
No call time for me today. . . off to work!

Christina said...

Sorry. c is me, I just brain-faded before I got the rest of it out.

Anonymous said...

Christina,

I don't know if you will ever get this, but I wanted to send you my best thoughts.

I think you are also a nurse. It is miserable having our schedules during a family crisis or the holidays. Sometimes admin forgets that nurses need personal time too...and we feel guilty if we call in sick because they patients will suffer or our colleagues will have a rough shift. It's a hard spot.

Take care of you and your family. You have to do it. It's really hard to be at work when you know someone you love its ill and you want to support your family. I think you, like me, treat the patients and their families the way you want to be treated, so you are extra sensitive to their needs because you have your FIL on your mind. I was always attentive to patients, but I worked my heart out more when I was suffering personally...and I burnt out.

Forget the cookies. Take the time you need. Do something to recharge yourself so you can be there for your family.

Thinking of you and wishing you all comfort. Your FIL in lucky to have such a wonderful family and be in the hospice community. They are amazing people.

Sprite