I have a cold...lung mung from hell. The weather is still cold. It's melted enough that I can see the car now. Staying in..again. How are you guys?
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Sending you virtual chicken soup heavy on the garlic and red pepper flakes. I's drive it over but still can't get my worthless one legger horse down the hill yet.
First of all I want to apologize in the Earth Mother chant my comment posted multiple times. I did not mean to do that I thought I was being clever and had this site open multiple times so I could listen and comment at the same time. I think that was that is why my post posted multiple times obnoxious. sorry.
Pat hope you feel better.
Why did our Slinky have to get tangled in the first day! Boys are so rough.
Damn! another crazmo trying to wreck havoc on an airplane.
Thanks for your blog Pat I really enjoy the peek into others insights and life.
Hey DD...I'm so glad Christmas is over. The SIL drama is done for this year and I don't have to see them until next year. We live less than 15 minutes apart and I can only stand being in the same room with SIL and Brother for a couple of hours each year. As the old sayings goes you can't choose your family.
Good morning! I send you healing thoughts for your "lung mung from hell". I have wanted to go out for breakfast at the local Biscuits for about a week and a half, now. Somehow we can't make it this morning, either. I'm ready, but my son has to work at noon, and he says no, and my husband has a cold, and when he gets anything, he nearly drowns in self-pity. Pathetic. We have all had a cold for the last week or two, but he feels like the only thing he is capable of, is lying in bed, playing video games on his computer. I should be more charitable, his mom called us at 6 am to tell us his dad had been restless about every three hours during the night, and she actually called the hospice nurse out. The hospice nurse offered admission back into hospice but my MIL refused. Why did she call the nurse out if she was going to refuse the highest level of treatment the nurse could offer? Her drama feels nuts to me. On Christmas Day, she fixed a nice lunch for us, and announced (while we were eating) that we would need to change FIL's diaper soon. Gross. I think it surprised her that I said sure, and was ready to go do the deed. I did long term care for years before I got into hospital nursing. I changed many beds/diapers, etc. before I was ever trained. Not nice of her to announce it during the meal, but I think that was the point, for her. I think she wanted to ruin whatever she could for us.
I am waiting patiently for another green egg today. I also hold a very small hope in my heart, that the other easter egger will produce a light blue egg, and the welsummer will produce a pretty terracotta or speckled egg. Wish me luck!!!
I hope you get over the crud soon! My house looks like Toys R Us exploded all over it and I heard Ralphie say he was bored. If I am being truthful I wanted to wring his neck. I think we will be putting together a donation pile tomorrow. At least someone would get to play with some cool toys. Truth be told the kid probably wouldn't miss the stuff anyway.
I hope you feel better soon Pat. How am I doing? Ugh. I am dealing with pain. Mega pain. I was doing so well after surgery (it has been month and half). Since Christmas Morning, I have been in pain. I think it is sciatic. If I am still suffering tomorrow, I will call the surgeons office. All our snow is gone from the blizzard too. Melted away! I am staving off the boredom by watching Law and Order SVU marathon.
Hope you feel better soon DD. To bad we cant send you virtual meds for the cold.
Well its a sucky day here again. Working.. We are not even busy at the hotel. With this recession people cant stay at a hotel for that long. So its a boring 8 hrs. I have 4 more days of this boredom. Another thing I have a Dr apt on the 29. We will see if I am pg. Even though ive missed 3 periods. Took 3 test all came up positive. I'm fin sick like a dog from 4pm-10pm every night. It sucks.. Big time.
Sorry to hear about the cold. Being sick sucks ass. I've been fairly healthy, for which I am very grateful...and I'm knocking on wood. Thought I'd mention my brother did show for Christmas and it was very pleasant. I also got a follow up call yesterday, also pleasant, but led into a request for the use of one of our cars, to which I of course said ok. And he will bring it back full of dog hair and smelling like smoke, two things he knows piss me off. I am a damn doormat, but I keep hoping one day he will prove me wrong :)
we are FINALLY suppose to get a couple inches of snow!! 'twould be very nice!
doing household chores and have to fill up the squirrel/bird feeders so the outdoor critters have food to keep them warm in the cold!
making blueberry scones and tofu/broccoli casserole for dinner...cannot find the recipe, so i shall 'wing it' and hope it ends up edible! :) if not, poli will eat it!! HAH!
Hope you're feeling better DD, I saw the cardio on the 22nd, not good news, but I loved the look on his face when he took my blood pressure (196/136)....it was a poem and I laughed out loud! Beth en Sevilla.... just so no one else uses my name...the other Beth comment wasn't me....
Hope everyone who is not feeling well, gets better soon! Ava's Mommy, are you having another baby? If so, congratulations! I'm home cooking another holiday feast for friends and family I didn't see. My turkey smells delish! Can't wait to eat.
Christina, what are you feeding the hens? My Grandma always mixed food color with the feed for Easter, it was so cool. I never figured it out until I grew up..lol.
Pat, these are Ameraucanas. They are a mix of South American birds who lay blue eggs, and another breed. I think various other breeds are used, so no one can really say what the exact mix is. They often just refer to them as easter eggers, because you can get blue, green, pink or brown eggs from them. Each hen has her own color, and stays with it. I think it's my adorable little wheaten (yellowish-white) Dora, that laid the green one yesterday. I have one more I'm waiting on. That one has beautiful patterned brown feathers. As far as what I feed them, just purina layer mix and lots of treats. Today they are having leftover roast beef with potatoes, onions and carrots. They are omnivores, though. I have fed them spaghetti with meat sauce, green beans, cabbage, kale, zucchini, pumpkin, scrambled eggs, nonfat yogurt, cheese, you name it. They frequently get leftovers, and sometimes I just cook extra for them, like when baking potatoes, etc. So you grandma colored the feed for colored eggs? I've heard of coloring the chicks in the shell for easter before, but had not heard about the colored feed.
Pat, I'm sharing in your lung mung from hell right now. I'm so glad I had that bladder lift a couple years ago or I'd be filling my shoes up with pee like I use to with this nasty ass cough I have now. Since I smoke, it always takes me twice as long to get rid of a cold.
I've been coughing so much I've hurt something in my back.
DD and Christina-Back in the '70's when I doing my Mother Earth thing I had a breed of chickens called, if I remember correctly, Anaconda and they layed the colored eggs. My kids were prettylittle then and just hought it was the coolest (so did I).
Pat, you are right about Sundays being boring. So it's off to the kitchen. Going to roast a butternut squash, onions and garlic and make some soup with it. I even have a touch of cream left from homemade carmel making to enrich it. Think I'll do a meatloaf to go with it since the oven will be on. Kitchen duty always relieves my boredom.
Escrow, maybe they were Araucana? Those are the original (so far as I know) South American birds that lay the colored eggs. Those are a straight breed bird---very cool!!!! In the 90's, I think, was when Martha Stewart grew a lot of those. You were way ahead of the curve!
Good Gravy Beth that pressure is high! I can imagine the look on his face. I hope your pressure is under control soon. What meds do they have you on if you don't mind me asking? miss tia Check your email:)
Christina LOL that waas before the internet! I read about them in Mother Earth News and had to mail order them the old fashioned way. And you are correct about the breed name. I'm old and need google now to refresh my sagging memory!
escrow
and that roasting squash is smelling almost ready to turn into soup!
Dear DD, Well, he didn't like my ekg nor the results of my stress test. As for meds Nissa, here's what I take: Coozar 3X a day 100mg. Atenalol 50 mg 2 X a day a diuretic 1X a day, + levothyroxine, amlodopine and now 2 new ones who's names I don't remember (lol...gotta have a sense of humor!) They want to do a cardio catherization, but I don't have platelets either (go figure..45K), and (yeah me) they finally figured out that I need to relax and are giving me lorazapam (I only take it to sleep or if the mother in law acts up) and Tranzene (great stuff). By the way, I'm 44 yrs. old and am back down to a size 12 ( 5'8"). Lost the weight when they diagnosed diabetes awhile ago...850 mg. metformin 3Xa day. They're thinking malignant hypertension. Who knows? At least I havn't lost me sense of humor about this!! LOL Beth en Sevilla
Oh sheesh Beth! You are so young to have to deal with all that shit. I take Ativan also for crippling anxiety. It has been a wonder drug for me. I only have to take it occasionally now since I have been trying to employ some biofeedback techniques to help with the anxiety. You are on some heavy duty meds! Congrats on your weight loss that is awesome! Have you had your kidney function tested? Those high blood pressures can really stress your kidneys. You will be in my thoughts and I wish you the best:)
Nissa, Yes, the kidneys are starting to act up...potassium in the blood work and lots of microalbumin in the urine. Thank heavens for socialized medicine here in Spain. For all my meds, I pay about 15$ a month, + hosp., dr. visits, and exams are free.....neat, huh? I am waiting for them to schedule the new stress test. Hopefully, I'll get some answers then. We'll see...I'll keep you posted. Beth en Sevilla
Pat, hoping you feel better soon, lung crap is awful. I had that this summer from having a cold an inhaling a lot of dust.
Sundays ARE boring, I was up too late at a party at a friends house. So I slept in and then went to church with my friend and his girls, grocery store and washed my car. Now I'm in for the day watching Deadliest Catch. Yawn. I really don't like winter. 418 pm and it's pretty much dark :-(
I LOVE Mike Rowe, from Deadliest Catch and Dirty Jobs. His crew was in town here a few years ago, filming. I spoke to the innkeeper where they all stayed (captains from the show DC) and she said they were all t-r-o-u-b-l-e.....drunk, girls,drugs all night long......
tia. I have had problems with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I can usually talk myself down now but a couple years ago I could barely leave the house. I think the turning point was when my anxiety was so bad it was causing me to have PVC's and I passed out at work. I knew I could not go on like that. I went to a holistic doctor who taught me a type of meditation similar to Transcendental Meditation. I knew I would not be able to take the anxiety medicine and work so I had to find another way to calm the hell down LOL
we bi-passed most of the Christmas shit this year by going early to Koh Samui.
Spent the day on the beach, ate club sandwiches & fries, played with Sonnys new toy story figures in the sand & then went home in the afternoon to pack up our crap to take to the new house we just rented.
We moved in proper on Boxing Day, it's up a hill & overlooks the ocean & the Big Buddha here http://static.panoramio.com/photos/original/8411176.jpg.
I am in the process of updating my blog with the last few months news & will get round to posting some views from the house. Suffice to say feeling very mellow & get a good feeling when I see that gold fella every morning when I open the door.
It's roasting here Pat & is very good for the soul so if you ever feel like getting on a plane we have a spare room.
my dr. never offered me ativan...valium works for me and i don't like to switch pills....i am way too high strung to try mediation....of any kind...my mind only really rests when i am scrubbing something, driving, or doing the dishes...or sometimes soaking in the tub.....
Tia, Oh I wasn't suggesting you change your meds at all. I was just saying they are in the same family. I love to clean also when I am anxious. It is very cathartic to me:)
Sorry everyone has a cold. I always found a warm 2 oz. whiskey, some honey, and a little lemon juice to really be helpful. Medicate yourself every half hour for about two hours and you will feel so much better.
This is a good chance to ask what everyone thinks about the health bill that is trying to be passed!!! Please tell me your thoughts on the subject. I have mixed feelings about it. Having gone through a lot of medical expenses for my husband (starting about six years ago and which has wiped out any money we had and then some)---I'm thinking it is good!! But I'm also aware that it has to be paid somehow and that means more taxes!! TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
Escrow, since you are sending virtual food, could you send me a big virtual steak--medium rare. It's been a long time since I've had one (cooked by someone else).
Nontraditional Student, You've let the right people know. They will send the good vibes that will help you get through this. For many people, Xmas is a downer. For us, there are things that make this time of year even worse. You look around at all the smiling faces and think to yourself, "why can't this be me?". Stay strong, but let the tears come out and expect to cry at this time for many years. Even if someone new comes along, you will still remember and cry. I expect I will cry for a long time. The best advice I can give you is when you feel like crying, think of something that happened with this person that made you laugh. You will probably still cry but the feeling will be different. I was recently told this--and it seems to help. Your situation was tragic and you probably have some anger mixed in. Can't blame you! Anger can be a healthy emotion also, but don't let it take over! That person is still all around you. The things you do bring back memories, make them good ones!
NonTraditionalStudent---I am so sorry for your loss! May you be blessed with peace and healing.
Bayou Jane, I want to believe the bill passed will be a good thing, but I don't really know if anything good can come from our elected officials. I have worked in the same hospital for over twenty years. It has been difficult for my hospital to survive, and a social worker recently shed some light on our situation for me. Insurance companies control everything. I already knew this, but not to the extent that was then described to me. The example used: If a patient is hospitalized for pneumonia, the hospital is paid for a certain amount of time, etc. Not until the patient is cured, but for enough time to make them better. If the patient then goes home, gets worse, and needs to be rehospitalized for pneumonia, the hospital is not paid anything for the second stay. The insurance company continues to rake in money in premiums, but doesn't pay out, and has total control over if you will be treated, how you will be treated, when you will be treated (meaning they can delay funding for treatment), and for how long. They also control how much they will pay for your treatment, and you may end up paying off the extra that they refuse to. How insane and one-sided is that? How are hospitals supposed to survive? My hospital has struggled for years and is finally merging with a large chain. I think it's a really good thing, because financially, a small hospital can not even survive on its own anymore. I just don't know if this is a situation that can be fixed from within. I live in Oregon, and we have the Oregon Health Plan to try to cover many who can not afford insurance otherwise. I have known people who cut their hours at work to be able to qualify for the plan, and know that many doctors don't accept this plan because they need to make money, and pay their insurance, as well. It is a terrible mess, and I am concerned that those in positions of power have a severe conflict of interest, so the problems will never be taken seriously enough to effect change.
On a brighter note, I did get that pretty green egg I was waiting for. (off my soapbox, now. . .);)
Pat, I hope you're feeling better soon. You've been through too much lately and can't help but worry about you.
NTS, I'm so sorry about your loved one. There's nothing I can say to ease the pain but maybe knowing you're not alone might help a little. You're never alone here.
Jane, I think the health care thing is a step in the right direction. I loathe insurance companies. I was turned down for health insurance because I had cancer...10 years ago! To be fair, there were more recent (non-related) issues but they listed cancer as the primary reason. SOB's.
I can't sleep tonight. It's cold (by AZ standards), the police helicopter is circling nearby and getting closer. The local police are awesome; they caught the kidnapper of a 5 year old on Christmas Day. She's safe.
Thanks for all your kind thoughts, suggestions and wishes. They really did help! I went to our old house in PA and burnt a love letter I wrote to him today. I watched the smoke rise into the clear, cold sky. Made me feel better. I still miss him desperately but know normally, when I think of him I smile. And the day he was killed we had the most marvelous morning. I also know others have suffered worse losses than I. Thank you again and I remain your grateful friend, NonTraditionalStudent
Pat, How are you feeling today? That yuckiness you are dealing with is going around here in CT also.
It has been month and a half. I was doing really good..pain was almost gone and then... I dont know. I have back pain. I see surgeon on Wed. Hope I did not fuck it up some how. Crossing my fingers and toes
I have a cold...lung mung from hell. The weather is still cold. It's melted enough that I can see the car now. Staying in..again. How are you guys?
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Sending you virtual chicken soup heavy on the garlic and red pepper flakes. I's drive it over but still can't get my worthless one legger horse down the hill yet.
escrow
Thanks.:) Sundays are so boring.
First of all I want to apologize in the Earth Mother chant my comment posted multiple times. I did not mean to do that I thought I was being clever and had this site open multiple times so I could listen and comment at the same time. I think that was that is why my post posted multiple times obnoxious. sorry.
Pat hope you feel better.
Why did our Slinky have to get tangled in the first day! Boys are so rough.
Damn! another crazmo trying to wreck havoc on an airplane.
Thanks for your blog Pat I really enjoy the peek into others insights and life.
Happy New Year!
Crap it happen again. Geez sorry!
Hey DD...I'm so glad Christmas is over. The SIL drama is done for this year and I don't have to see them until next year. We live less than 15 minutes apart and I can only stand being in the same room with SIL and Brother for a couple of hours each year. As the old sayings goes you can't choose your family.
No problem, Noelle. :)
Good morning! I send you healing thoughts for your "lung mung from hell".
I have wanted to go out for breakfast at the local Biscuits for about a week and a half, now. Somehow we can't make it this morning, either. I'm ready, but my son has to work at noon, and he says no, and my husband has a cold, and when he gets anything, he nearly drowns in self-pity. Pathetic. We have all had a cold for the last week or two, but he feels like the only thing he is capable of, is lying in bed, playing video games on his computer. I should be more charitable, his mom called us at 6 am to tell us his dad had been restless about every three hours during the night, and she actually called the hospice nurse out. The hospice nurse offered admission back into hospice but my MIL refused. Why did she call the nurse out if she was going to refuse the highest level of treatment the nurse could offer? Her drama feels nuts to me. On Christmas Day, she fixed a nice lunch for us, and announced (while we were eating) that we would need to change FIL's diaper soon. Gross. I think it surprised her that I said sure, and was ready to go do the deed. I did long term care for years before I got into hospital nursing. I changed many beds/diapers, etc. before I was ever trained. Not nice of her to announce it during the meal, but I think that was the point, for her. I think she wanted to ruin whatever she could for us.
I am waiting patiently for another green egg today. I also hold a very small hope in my heart, that the other easter egger will produce a light blue egg, and the welsummer will produce a pretty terracotta or speckled egg. Wish me luck!!!
I hope you get over the crud soon! My house looks like Toys R Us exploded all over it and I heard Ralphie say he was bored. If I am being truthful I wanted to wring his neck. I think we will be putting together a donation pile tomorrow. At least someone would get to play with some cool toys. Truth be told the kid probably wouldn't miss the stuff anyway.
I hope you feel better soon Pat. How am I doing?
Ugh.
I am dealing with pain. Mega pain. I was doing so well after surgery (it has been month and half). Since Christmas Morning, I have been in pain. I think it is sciatic. If I am still suffering tomorrow, I will call the surgeons office.
All our snow is gone from the blizzard too. Melted away!
I am staving off the boredom by watching Law and Order SVU marathon.
Hope you feel better soon DD. To bad we cant send you virtual meds for the cold.
Well its a sucky day here again. Working.. We are not even busy at the hotel. With this recession people cant stay at a hotel for that long. So its a boring 8 hrs. I have 4 more days of this boredom. Another thing I have a Dr apt on the 29. We will see if I am pg. Even though ive missed 3 periods. Took 3 test all came up positive. I'm fin sick like a dog from 4pm-10pm every night. It sucks.. Big time.
Sorry to hear about the cold. Being sick sucks ass. I've been fairly healthy, for which I am very grateful...and I'm knocking on wood.
Thought I'd mention my brother did show for Christmas and it was very pleasant. I also got a follow up call yesterday, also pleasant, but led into a request for the use of one of our cars, to which I of course said ok. And he will bring it back full of dog hair and smelling like smoke, two things he knows piss me off. I am a damn doormat, but I keep hoping one day he will prove me wrong :)
hope your cold goes away PDQ!!!
we are FINALLY suppose to get a couple inches of snow!! 'twould be very nice!
doing household chores and have to fill up the squirrel/bird feeders so the outdoor critters have food to keep them warm in the cold!
making blueberry scones and tofu/broccoli casserole for dinner...cannot find the recipe, so i shall 'wing it' and hope it ends up edible! :) if not, poli will eat it!! HAH!
Hope you're feeling better DD, I saw the cardio on the 22nd, not good news, but I loved the look on his face when he took my blood pressure (196/136)....it was a poem and I laughed out loud!
Beth en Sevilla....
just so no one else uses my name...the other Beth comment wasn't me....
Hope everyone who is not feeling well, gets better soon! Ava's Mommy, are you having another baby? If so, congratulations!
I'm home cooking another holiday feast for friends and family I didn't see. My turkey smells delish! Can't wait to eat.
Christina, what are you feeding the hens? My Grandma always mixed food color with the feed for Easter, it was so cool. I never figured it out until I grew up..lol.
Nissa, I like the idea of donating some toys. They aways get some duplicates anyhow.
Congrats to Ava's Mommy, oh my goooooooooodness.
Beth, what did the cardio say???
Tia, Blueberry scones sound delish..brocoli tofu sounds pure evil.
Heidi, I thought the surgery would take away the pain??
Angie, next time, set your radio on high on whatever music he doesn't like so it blasts him when he starts it. Heh.
Pat, these are Ameraucanas. They are a mix of South American birds who lay blue eggs, and another breed. I think various other breeds are used, so no one can really say what the exact mix is. They often just refer to them as easter eggers, because you can get blue, green, pink or brown eggs from them. Each hen has her own color, and stays with it.
I think it's my adorable little wheaten (yellowish-white) Dora, that laid the green one yesterday. I have one more I'm waiting on. That one has beautiful patterned brown feathers.
As far as what I feed them, just purina layer mix and lots of treats. Today they are having leftover roast beef with potatoes, onions and carrots. They are omnivores, though. I have fed them spaghetti with meat sauce, green beans, cabbage, kale, zucchini, pumpkin, scrambled eggs, nonfat yogurt, cheese, you name it. They frequently get leftovers, and sometimes I just cook extra for them, like when baking potatoes, etc.
So you grandma colored the feed for colored eggs? I've heard of coloring the chicks in the shell for easter before, but had not heard about the colored feed.
Pat, I'm sharing in your lung mung from hell right now. I'm so glad I had that bladder lift a couple years ago or I'd be filling my shoes up with pee like I use to with this nasty ass cough I have now. Since I smoke, it always takes me twice as long to get rid of a cold.
I've been coughing so much I've hurt something in my back.
DD and Christina-Back in the '70's when I doing my Mother Earth thing I had a breed of chickens called, if I remember correctly, Anaconda and they layed the colored eggs. My kids were prettylittle then and just hought it was the coolest (so did I).
escrow
Pat, you are right about Sundays being boring. So it's off to the kitchen. Going to roast a butternut squash, onions and garlic and make some soup with it. I even have a touch of cream left from homemade carmel making to enrich it. Think I'll do a meatloaf to go with it since the oven will be on. Kitchen duty always relieves my boredom.
escrow
well i am lazy today....no tofu-broccoli casserole today....stouffers mac and beef!! still having blueberry scones though for dessert! :)
THEY say we are suppose to get snow tonight! 3-5+ inches!! BOUT TIME!!!!!!!
Sorry to hear you are sick. I hope you get to feeling better soon.
I am just relaxing and crocheting today. Trying to unwind from all the holiday stress.
I think it's in the 60's today and it's a lovely day.
Escrow, maybe they were Araucana? Those are the original (so far as I know) South American birds that lay the colored eggs. Those are a straight breed bird---very cool!!!!
In the 90's, I think, was when Martha Stewart grew a lot of those. You were way ahead of the curve!
Good Gravy Beth that pressure is high! I can imagine the look on his face. I hope your pressure is under control soon. What meds do they have you on if you don't mind me asking?
miss tia Check your email:)
Christina LOL that waas before the internet! I read about them in Mother Earth News and had to mail order them the old fashioned way. And you are correct about the breed name. I'm old and need google now to refresh my sagging memory!
escrow
and that roasting squash is smelling almost ready to turn into soup!
Dear DD,
Well, he didn't like my ekg nor the results of my stress test. As for meds Nissa, here's what I take:
Coozar 3X a day 100mg.
Atenalol 50 mg 2 X a day
a diuretic 1X a day, + levothyroxine, amlodopine and now 2 new ones who's names I don't remember (lol...gotta have a sense of humor!) They want to do a cardio catherization, but I don't have platelets either (go figure..45K), and (yeah me) they finally figured out that I need to relax and are giving me lorazapam (I only take it to sleep or if the mother in law acts up) and Tranzene (great stuff). By the way, I'm 44 yrs. old and am back down to a size 12 ( 5'8"). Lost the weight when they diagnosed diabetes awhile ago...850 mg. metformin 3Xa day. They're thinking malignant hypertension. Who knows? At least I havn't lost me sense of humor about this!! LOL
Beth en Sevilla
Oh sheesh Beth! You are so young to have to deal with all that shit. I take Ativan also for crippling anxiety. It has been a wonder drug for me. I only have to take it occasionally now since I have been trying to employ some biofeedback techniques to help with the anxiety. You are on some heavy duty meds! Congrats on your weight loss that is awesome! Have you had your kidney function tested? Those high blood pressures can really stress your kidneys. You will be in my thoughts and I wish you the best:)
Nissa,
Yes, the kidneys are starting to act up...potassium in the blood work and lots of microalbumin in the urine. Thank heavens for socialized medicine here in Spain. For all my meds, I pay about 15$ a month, + hosp., dr. visits, and exams are free.....neat, huh?
I am waiting for them to schedule the new stress test. Hopefully, I'll get some answers then. We'll see...I'll keep you posted.
Beth en Sevilla
Pat, hoping you feel better soon, lung crap is awful. I had that this summer from having a cold an inhaling a lot of dust.
Sundays ARE boring, I was up too late at a party at a friends house. So I slept in and then went to church with my friend and his girls, grocery store and washed my car. Now I'm in for the day watching Deadliest Catch. Yawn. I really don't like winter. 418 pm and it's pretty much dark :-(
nissa--never had ativan....i get valium and i take it rarely---i get like 60 a year....and i only take half at a time when needed....
never tried biofeed back but i have been an anxiety bomb from day 1 of my life....
I LOVE Mike Rowe, from Deadliest Catch and Dirty Jobs. His crew was in town here a few years ago, filming. I spoke to the innkeeper where they all stayed (captains from the show DC) and she said they were all t-r-o-u-b-l-e.....drunk, girls,drugs all night long......
tia.
I have had problems with anxiety for as long as I can remember. I can usually talk myself down now but a couple years ago I could barely leave the house. I think the turning point was when my anxiety was so bad it was causing me to have PVC's and I passed out at work. I knew I could not go on like that. I went to a holistic doctor who taught me a type of meditation similar to Transcendental Meditation. I knew I would not be able to take the anxiety medicine and work so I had to find another way to calm the hell down LOL
Tia,
Ativan is in the Valium family. They are both benzodiazipines. I think they work in much of the same way
I wanna go HOME. I hate this snow shit.And most of my family at the moment.
we bi-passed most of the Christmas shit this year by going early to Koh Samui.
Spent the day on the beach, ate club sandwiches & fries, played with Sonnys new toy story figures in the sand & then went home in the afternoon to pack up our crap to take to the new house we just rented.
We moved in proper on Boxing Day, it's up a hill & overlooks the ocean & the Big Buddha here http://static.panoramio.com/photos/original/8411176.jpg.
http://easiatravel.suite101.com/article.cfm/the_big_buddha_koh_samui_thailand
I am in the process of updating my blog with the last few months news & will get round to posting some views from the house. Suffice to say feeling very mellow & get a good feeling when I see that gold fella every morning when I open the door.
It's roasting here Pat & is very good for the soul so if you ever feel like getting on a plane we have a spare room.
Take care of yourself & get well soon
Bubble
my dr. never offered me ativan...valium works for me and i don't like to switch pills....i am way too high strung to try mediation....of any kind...my mind only really rests when i am scrubbing something, driving, or doing the dishes...or sometimes soaking in the tub.....
we're getting snow!!!!!!!! YEAH!!!
Tia,
Oh I wasn't suggesting you change your meds at all. I was just saying they are in the same family. I love to clean also when I am anxious. It is very cathartic to me:)
Sorry everyone has a cold. I always found a warm 2 oz. whiskey, some honey, and a little lemon juice to really be helpful. Medicate yourself every half hour for about two hours and you will feel so much better.
This is a good chance to ask what everyone thinks about the health bill that is trying to be passed!!!
Please tell me your thoughts on the subject. I have mixed feelings about it. Having gone through a lot of medical expenses for my husband (starting about six years ago and which has wiped out any money we had and then some)---I'm thinking it is good!! But I'm also aware that it has to be paid somehow and that means more taxes!!
TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK!
Escrow,
since you are sending virtual food, could you send me a big virtual steak--medium rare. It's been a long time since I've had one (cooked by someone else).
I am losing it kids. Tomorrow is the one year anniversary of the death of my fiance. He was killed. Can't stop crying.
No, Today is the first year. Didn't realize that the date had changed.
NonTraditionalStudent
Nontraditional Student,
You've let the right people know. They will send the good vibes that will help you get through this. For many people, Xmas is a downer. For us, there are things that make this time of year even worse. You look around at all the smiling faces and think to yourself, "why can't this be me?".
Stay strong, but let the tears come out and expect to cry at this time for many years. Even if someone new comes along, you will still remember and cry. I expect I will cry for a long time. The best advice I can give you is when you feel like crying, think of something that happened with this person that made you laugh. You will probably still cry but the feeling will be different. I was recently told this--and it seems to help. Your situation was tragic and you probably have some anger mixed in. Can't blame you! Anger can be a healthy emotion also, but don't let it take over!
That person is still all around you. The things you do bring back memories, make them good ones!
NonTraditionalStudent---I am so sorry for your loss! May you be blessed with peace and healing.
Bayou Jane, I want to believe the bill passed will be a good thing, but I don't really know if anything good can come from our elected officials. I have worked in the same hospital for over twenty years. It has been difficult for my hospital to survive, and a social worker recently shed some light on our situation for me.
Insurance companies control everything. I already knew this, but not to the extent that was then described to me. The example used: If a patient is hospitalized for pneumonia, the hospital is paid for a certain amount of time, etc. Not until the patient is cured, but for enough time to make them better. If the patient then goes home, gets worse, and needs to be rehospitalized for pneumonia, the hospital is not paid anything for the second stay. The insurance company continues to rake in money in premiums, but doesn't pay out, and has total control over if you will be treated, how you will be treated, when you will be treated (meaning they can delay funding for treatment), and for how long. They also control how much they will pay for your treatment, and you may end up paying off the extra that they refuse to. How insane and one-sided is that?
How are hospitals supposed to survive?
My hospital has struggled for years and is finally merging with a large chain. I think it's a really good thing, because financially, a small hospital can not even survive on its own anymore.
I just don't know if this is a situation that can be fixed from within.
I live in Oregon, and we have the Oregon Health Plan to try to cover many who can not afford insurance otherwise. I have known people who cut their hours at work to be able to qualify for the plan, and know that many doctors don't accept this plan because they need to make money, and pay their insurance, as well. It is a terrible mess, and I am concerned that those in positions of power have a severe conflict of interest, so the problems will never be taken seriously enough to effect change.
On a brighter note, I did get that pretty green egg I was waiting for. (off my soapbox, now. . .);)
Pat, I hope you're feeling better soon. You've been through too much lately and can't help but worry about you.
NTS, I'm so sorry about your loved one. There's nothing I can say to ease the pain but maybe knowing you're not alone might help a little. You're never alone here.
Jane, I think the health care thing is a step in the right direction. I loathe insurance companies. I was turned down for health insurance because I had cancer...10 years ago! To be fair, there were more recent (non-related) issues but they listed cancer as the primary reason. SOB's.
I can't sleep tonight. It's cold (by AZ standards), the police helicopter is circling nearby and getting closer. The local police are awesome; they caught the kidnapper of a 5 year old on Christmas Day. She's safe.
NTS so sorry to hear about your loss.
I am sending positive thoughts your way. You will be in my thoughts.
NonTraditionalStudent, I am sorry you're still hurting. Only time will heal the hole in your heart. Hugssss to you.
Just curious, you will stop asking if we are from Heckmess. We are aware you use all our names there, we are ignoring you. Delete.
Thanks for all your kind thoughts, suggestions and wishes. They really did help! I went to our old house in PA and burnt a love letter I wrote to him today. I watched the smoke rise into the clear, cold sky. Made me feel better. I still miss him desperately but know normally, when I think of him I smile. And the day he was killed we had the most marvelous morning. I also know others have suffered worse losses than I. Thank you again and I remain your grateful friend,
NonTraditionalStudent
And if anyone can feel his spirit let me know...I think my receptors are blocked...
Pat,
How are you feeling today? That yuckiness you are dealing with is going around here in CT also.
It has been month and a half. I was doing really good..pain was almost gone and then...
I dont know. I have back pain. I see surgeon on Wed. Hope I did not fuck it up some how.
Crossing my fingers and toes
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