Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Can'tGetMyShitTogther-Itis

Hmm. I was looking at profiles today, you know, when you click someone's name and get their profile page? I clicked my own name and all that came up was this blog and an old picture of a light in the garden. Oh, and I'm a Scorpio. And I thought, that's pathetic, I should at least make a proper profile. I clicked Frimmy's and said, well isn't she cute? And then I got distracted by her links and read at post secret for awhile. And then I came back here and forgot what I was supposed to be doing. Because my brain doesn't work right anymore. And I get tired of it, but, there's nothing to be done.
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I could call myself quirky, I guess. That sounds better than brain damaged.

44 comments:

Anonymous said...

No it's called summer-itis! & menopause? Or "Where the hell did my little waist go"??? I forget lots of things now. I didn't used to be this bad. & lately I can't even get up the energy to clean my house the way I like it. Of course, when my daughter moves all her stuff out of my house, that will help. Right now, its just depressing to look around & see furniture & everything else of hers shoved into every corner of my house. But she just closed on her own new house y'day so she will soon be taking all her stuff with her! Hooray!! It was a repo so they had to get all new applinaces(former owners took them) and make wall & door repairs and the ppl even took the fans & lights! & they only lived there 3 mos!! But they cleaned it out! Am surprised they left the dishwasher tho, it was prob too hard to get out. Its a darling house & she will have it all decorated so cute. Her dad was helping her paint the kitchen y'day so now thats done. Lots to do! Then I can clean my own house. Maddy & Huck will be moving there too :( Waaahhhhhhh!!!!!!!!! Whats a g'ma to do w/o her baby doggies??

rox

miss tia said...

quirky!! LOVE IT!!! :)

have they got you on decent meds yet???

i got an appointment at 2pm---best get dressed! at least my dr. is like a 5 min. drive away! to tell her maxzide is EVIL and i will never take it again!!!

Dirty Disher said...

I take so many meds, I have to have a system just to remember what I took. I get frustrated by everyday life. I just can not get my shit together. I am grateful that my cognitive brain remains intact, but, the rest is pitiful.

Dirty Disher said...

And that includes my speech, which is off and frustrating as hell. I prefer typing.

Anonymous said...

Miss Tia,
I didn't know what post to reply to so you would see this, so hopefully you'll see it here.
I requested to be a Fan of DD's on facebook. In my profile pic, I have a red cardigan on and my last name is the same as a former President. I'm too squeamish about posting my name on the net, Sorry!

~Palmetto Girl

miss tia said...

i don't see your request for membership!!! maybe it'll show up in a bit!!! i'll check again when i get back from the dr.!!! you can always send me a friend request too, then i can invite you to the group easier! we have dd discussions on my facebook page! http://www.facebook.com/misstia

miss tia said...

found it!!! they put on the right side of my wall!!! i approved ya! most of current conversations have gone on on my facebook wall though.....so you can send me a friend request if you wish!! i'll send ya message about what you've missed when i get back from the dr.!

Anonymous said...

I get frustrated by everyday life. I just can not get my shit together TOO! btw, i am only 27. now that's pathetic!

CJ said...

I know what you mean about the brain cells not firing. My brain turns to mush in the summer. Gotta get it working again. My classes at work start soon & it's a bitch to remember gov rules and regs. I like 'quirky' sounds better than other options. Guess I'm quirky too.

Pat ~ when my dad was alive, he was on lots of heart/ circulation meds. He made up a monthly grid chart. Days across the top/ meds down the side and would check them off each time he took another pill.

Peg said...

I have the same thing. I have to have a system to remember everything. I can't pull away from the garage door until it is completely shut and I put the remote up in my visor or I get a block away and panic about if I remembered to close the door.

My cat has to have a pill at night and one in the morning. at night I have o turn the bottle upside down on the window sill to remind myself that I hadn't given him his morning pill yet. Just little stupid shit. But I can remember clear as a bell 30, even 40 years ago. I also don't have the energy I did from even a year ago to do the things that need to be done. I really do think I'm losing my mind.

I'm only 52. What's it going to be like when I'm 60? It's scary.

Anonymous said...

Well, Pat I am deaf in one ear & have hearing loss in the other. I am on meds for my mennierres and it sucks cuz it will never ever go away. I was just reading about menopause & the belly that it brings as a gift! Grrr! Hate it and am trying to get my waist back for this freaking wedding. I feel like such a cow. I never had a weight problem till I hit the Big "M" and now my waist is MIA. I read that no breads or diary will help alot. And that our older bodies are retaining the fat to help keep our bones healthy. So, its really harder to lose. Makes sense. I guess I will have to anorexic for the next few weeks & see what happens. Nothing else seems to work. Not even my weights and exercise. Seems a common complaint too, like it just doesnt help. Anybody have any suggestions?

rox

Anonymous said...

there's a "friends of DD FB page? Why didn't I know about this? Hmmm???

rox

miss tia said...

sent you an invite rox! thought you were a member already!!!

dr. gave me a referal to an ENT.....might get tubes in my ears....

Anonymous said...

Miss Tia,
I sent you a friend request on facebook.

~Palmetto Girl

Anonymous said...

Tia I just sent you a friend request because clearly I missed something in my baby feeding absence..

Anonymous said...

DD I am going to use that word to describe
my out of order and 3 hours behind day I'm
having. Perfect for me today thanks Pat.
-Kiki :)

Anonymous said...

I love post secret.....is today the first time youve read there?

snowbunnie

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miss tia said...

meissa....i'm a gonna dispute that! you know i love ya!! but people can recovery 100% from mild strokes!!!

Unknown said...

What? Rox I thought you were there already!

DD, what you are experiencing could be after-effects from the stroke. Unfortunately after a stroke people are never the same.....I wish you well girl, take it easy!

Although I like quirky better!

Unknown said...

Tia, If that's the case then that's fine by me :)

My MIL has been suffering a series of mini-strokes after the one that almost killed her almost four years ago...she was never the same after that. she's 85.

Angie said...

Pat, can you check your email? :)

Frimmy said...

First of all glad you got caught up in post secret. It's an amazing blog/work of art. Don't know about cute. I'd rather be quirky. Or edgy.

Second, there's a friends of DD FB page?!

Anonymous said...

Don't blame it on menopause Rox, I had a total hysterctomy in '97 when I was only 32 yrs. old. I have heart problems, which screws with the energy problem, but I swear, I was soooo happy that I never had to use a tampax again LOL! My neurons aren't the same as when I was 20, but damn, I enjoyed getting to this state!!!
Don't sweat the small stuff!
Lots of love to you Rox!
Beth in Seville

Anonymous said...

P.S.
To take my meds, I need a flow chart!!
Beth

Frimmy said...

I knew you had health issues but don't think I caught the thread where "stroke" was mentioned. I'm so sorry!

My FIL had a stroke and his speech was messed up. His brain kept substituting words for the ones he was trying to say and he couldn't get the word he wanted to say to come out of his mouth. He'd get so upset and almost frantic.

miss tia said...

frimmy---YES! search for 'fans of DD' on face book....i have to approve membership and the wall isn't viewable unless you're a member--keeping the trolls at bay! :)

if you have problems, you can find me at: http://www.facebook.com/misstia

Heidi said...

I am the same way Pat. Quirky bordering on comatose.. :)
My doc put me on a new pill for my CFS. Forgive the spelling error but I think it is Vyvlace? I will look later. Anyhoo.. I am on my second week and I have my attention span back! I am getting shit done. I am no longer a caffeinated slug.

Anonymous said...

Miss Tia I thought you said your LEGAL name was Miss Tia but your facebook page says Tia Windsor...Now I am really confused.

miss tia said...

my legal name IS miss tia! it's on my DL, SS card, credit cards, college DIPLOMA!! facebook wouldn't accept 'miss' as a first name and when i contacted them about it, they wanted my DL and a credit card faxed to them.....uh no.....

i have explained this many times here....

miss tia said...

does it really matter?? what the big fucking deal ANON-A-MOUSE???

connie45 said...

Miss Tia - is "Windsor" a nod to your love of British royalty? Love it!

connie45 said...

Miss Tia - is "Windsor" a nod to your love of British royalty? Love it!

miss tia said...

yep! plus it's the name of a kitty of mine!!! :)

what's really surreal is that a friend of mine from college is an attorney now and she got a legal brief today from a law clerk named tia windsor!!! i wonder if that's my future self?!

miss tia said...

if i changed my name again i would probably do 'tia windsor'...

Anonymous said...

Wow. Tia I wasn't being rude I honestly was confused. I wouldn't send my info to Facebook either I don't blame you. I apologize that I missed your explanation before I am knew here. I read alot but never post. I will be sure to add my name in the future as I am not trolling or trying to be rude

Ellie

miss tia said...

please accept my apologize ellie...we have had serious troll problems here before....but i don't understand the question anyway....you can use any name you want on facebook, so why question my name? there hasn't been a mention of miss tia being my 'real' name on here for quite awhile, so perhaps you aren't that new here and are only new to posting....welcome...

miss tia said...

apologies....sorry typo...it's late...i gotta go to bed....

some things have really drained me today.....

night all!

Anonymous said...

No apology needed. I saw some argument just recently when someone was giving you crap about your name, maybe a week or two ago. I honestly was just confused.

Have a good night.

Ellie

sally said...

Rox, when is the wedding? Have you ever been on Atkins? The phase 1 part of Atkins just rips the fat off. It sucks, but it works. But if you do it for too long, you might get sick the first time you eat carbs--like wedding cake. So go off it a few days before the BIG day!
BTW, once you are off it the weight comes right back. sigh.

Christina said...

Pat, I'm sorry you are suffering those effects from the stroke, and maybe from the meds, as well. It is misery when you can't get the words out. I am having difficulty with that, myself, lately. With me, I think it's menopause. I just have difficulty remembering words, or trying to stay on task. I lose my focus, and that is one of the difficult things about nursing. The constant interruptions make it almost impossible, sometimes, to get anything done, but you have to be able to refocus quickly and keep at it, as well as mentally organize and reorganize everything you need to do. I feel for you. I feel it in myself.
On a side note, Patricia Neal had a stroke when she was 39 and recovered well. I hope your recovery gets easier.

Dirty Disher said...

I can get the words out if people give me 2 seconds when I stumble. Seriously, not 2 minutes, 2 seconds. But, they won't usually. I can think it and see it fine in my brain, but, sometimes I lose a word..like I just can't spit it out and I have to pause. People talk over me or answer for me. It's annoying.

miss tia said...

when i'm on the verge of vertigo my brain thinks the word right, but when i type it it'll come out wrong!!! frustrating!!

CJ said...

In my family we call that Rubyitis, named after my crazy mother.