No one love vinatage airplane art as much as I do. I found that on a Fark article. I was gonna do one of Lissa dropping bombs. Anyway, I have something to say, but, I'll stick it in comments.
So, here's the deal. I had to take my mom to the stores yesterday and she was all upset because she had some fancy shmancy test on her brain and the doctor told her she had brain damage. Now, what the test really said, I don't know, but, what I think is that it was his way of gently telling her she's slightly handicapped in the noggin.
This is something that took my years to figure out because she's my mother. When you're a kid, you can't imagine that your mother is slow. You just don't know what the hell is wrong with this gorgeous woman you look up to. Until you're an adult and she's tried to ruin your life many times with decisions that are flat out retarded.
So, I told her, it's no big deal. Doctors told me my brain is damaged and all scarred up from strokes and seizures. I said, don't worry, about it. My brain is not cognitivly damaged, it still works fine. I just have physical limitations now.
So, she says, it's not the same. They say I'm, you know. I'm....not smart. She can't bring herself to say the words I know fit. Functionally retarded. She looked like she was going to cry. Fuck man, I felt bad for her. I know she's an ignorant pushy shit sometimes, but, some of it isn't her fault. It doesn't make the shit she's done any less devestating, but, come on..I felt bad.
So, I said, look, I'm just saying, I have brain damage too and I think just fine, forget about it. She says, it's easy for you to say since you belonged to that genius organization and you were just a kid when you did that, you aren't normal. I said, maybe, but, being like you are is more normal than you think. I have to look on the internet for people I can relate to and even those people think I'm weird and cold and they've told me so. So, having a high IQ is not all it's cracked up to be. Most people are more like you. YOU are the norm. Trust me, I read it every day.
I don't know if she got it or not. Seemed like she did. It's fucked up, but, nearly the whole world is retarded now. You have to make a blog to find people who aren't retarded. Seriously. Maybe she'll stop doing implusive weird things now and just enjoy being in control of her own life. Now that a doctor, who she thinks is god, has told her to her face.
I guess saying, that's okay because all of your friends and most of your family is fucking retared too, isn't cheerful. Fuck me.
well if you were heartless to her, we all would understand....i wouldn't lift a pinky to do anything to help my motherthing and i know she's fucked up too....
I like how you said that some of the shit she's done is not her fault. It doesn't change the damage that was done or how it affected you but you see that she made decisions that were retarded and out of being unable to comprehend the consequences.
I don't think you're cold in the slightest bit. I shines through loud and clear that you are not heartless. You went above and beyond to make her feel better and she is a person who has done things that would warrant you not bothering to try.
Pat, you humble me once again. After all she's done you still feel sorry for her. My mom passed six years ago and sometimes the anger is still unbearable. I really don't know how you do it.
I just think maybe she realizes now that she's not always right and has made bad decisions for other people. Mainly me. Who knows what she thinks really. Fuck.
She's also getting senile and that scares her, but, sometimes she doesn't remember it.
Seems kinda late for anybody to be left feeling bad about anything. You each have your onw health to consider. Just leave it and keep pushing. That's all there really is to do. Don't bring yourself or her down. It's no use. You don't need that. Just look ahead. & maybe she will be nicer from now on. You can't change history.
Seems kinda late for anybody to be left feeling bad about anything. You each have your onw health to consider. Just leave it and keep pushing. That's all there really is to do. Don't bring yourself or her down. It's no use. You don't need that. Just look ahead. & maybe she will be nicer from now on. You can't change history.
No one love vinatage airplane art as much as I do. I found that on a Fark article. I was gonna do one of Lissa dropping bombs. Anyway, I have something to say, but, I'll stick it in comments.
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So, here's the deal. I had to take my mom to the stores yesterday and she was all upset because she had some fancy shmancy test on her brain and the doctor told her she had brain damage. Now, what the test really said, I don't know, but, what I think is that it was his way of gently telling her she's slightly handicapped in the noggin.
This is something that took my years to figure out because she's my mother. When you're a kid, you can't imagine that your mother is slow. You just don't know what the hell is wrong with this gorgeous woman you look up to. Until you're an adult and she's tried to ruin your life many times with decisions that are flat out retarded.
So, I told her, it's no big deal. Doctors told me my brain is damaged and all scarred up from strokes and seizures. I said, don't worry, about it. My brain is not cognitivly damaged, it still works fine. I just have physical limitations now.
So, she says, it's not the same. They say I'm, you know. I'm....not smart. She can't bring herself to say the words I know fit. Functionally retarded. She looked like she was going to cry. Fuck man, I felt bad for her. I know she's an ignorant pushy shit sometimes, but, some of it isn't her fault. It doesn't make the shit she's done any less devestating, but, come on..I felt bad.
So, I said, look, I'm just saying, I have brain damage too and I think just fine, forget about it. She says, it's easy for you to say since you belonged to that genius organization and you were just a kid when you did that, you aren't normal. I said, maybe, but, being like you are is more normal than you think. I have to look on the internet for people I can relate to and even those people think I'm weird and cold and they've told me so. So, having a high IQ is not all it's cracked up to be. Most people are more like you. YOU are the norm. Trust me, I read it every day.
I don't know if she got it or not. Seemed like she did. It's fucked up, but, nearly the whole world is retarded now. You have to make a blog to find people who aren't retarded. Seriously. Maybe she'll stop doing implusive weird things now and just enjoy being in control of her own life. Now that a doctor, who she thinks is god, has told her to her face.
I guess saying, that's okay because all of your friends and most of your family is fucking retared too, isn't cheerful. Fuck me.
ps..don't care about spelling..not fixin' it.
I should feel bad for the motherthing, but I just don't. Any pain she's feeling now pales in comparison to what she's caused you and others.
i agree with anon.....
True, but, I'm not heartless. Hard to believe, I know. She's just so fucked up.
well if you were heartless to her, we all would understand....i wouldn't lift a pinky to do anything to help my motherthing and i know she's fucked up too....
I like how you said that some of the shit she's done is not her fault. It doesn't change the damage that was done or how it affected you but you see that she made decisions that were retarded and out of being unable to comprehend the consequences.
I don't think you're cold in the slightest bit. I shines through loud and clear that you are not heartless. You went above and beyond to make her feel better and she is a person who has done things that would warrant you not bothering to try.
I understand that completely.
Pat, you humble me once again. After all she's done you still feel sorry for her. My mom passed six years ago and sometimes the anger is still unbearable. I really don't know how you do it.
I just think maybe she realizes now that she's not always right and has made bad decisions for other people. Mainly me. Who knows what she thinks really. Fuck.
She's also getting senile and that scares her, but, sometimes she doesn't remember it.
Pat, you got a heart as big as Texas!!!
Seems kinda late for anybody to be left feeling bad about anything. You each have your onw health to consider. Just leave it and keep pushing. That's all there really is to do. Don't bring yourself or her down. It's no use. You don't need that. Just look ahead. & maybe she will be nicer from now on. You can't change history.
Seems kinda late for anybody to be left feeling bad about anything. You each have your onw health to consider. Just leave it and keep pushing. That's all there really is to do. Don't bring yourself or her down. It's no use. You don't need that. Just look ahead. & maybe she will be nicer from now on. You can't change history.
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