It's cold here. Below zero at night still and more snow. And ice. Lots of ice. It's old lady check day and you know what that means for me. It's going to be a long day. I typed a whole post and then it disappeared. Nice. Blogger and Firefox. I hate them both. What are you up to?
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I was just wondering, have you gone back to work since your medical problems? Or has the weather held you back?
Back to the salt mines on a Monday. Adulthood reminds me of that song from the Godfathers: Birth, School, Work, Death.
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=QO5dcW0P75M&feature=kp
The grind IS a grind some days. More coffee please .... or let me be a kid, again.
Jane, no. I can't do it on a reg basis yet. I work on call now, but, sometimes, I just can't go in. I'm tired and weak. Still sick a lot. My family expects me to preform duties as usual and nothing I say to them helps. I can take care of myself, but, it takes everything out of me. I can't keep taking care of other people, yet, they give me no choice. They just won't listen.
Pat, people are like that! It's times like you are going through that you realise that you are on your own and, if you don't look after number one, no one else will. I've been through that many times myself. Other people just don't give a fuck, as much as I don't want to believe that. I hope you find a way to heal. Isn't there someplace where you can go and stay for a while to get some strength back? After all what are the people who are using you going to do when things get so bad that they have to turn to someone else for help? And that's another sad fact, people will always find someone to replace you. Try getting them to replace you before they have to.
DD, does that make you a call girl. With that new body, you can make big bucks.
There is a new show coming on USA called Chrissley. Does anyone know if this is a real family reality show? Or is this a show that makes fun of reality shows?
If this is a real man, I would have to kill him. The commercials are already aggrevating the hell out of me.
DD, why don't you tell your mom to call Ping and her traveling gas station to take her to the store. Is she still around? Or has she been blown up?
Ping! I had forgotten all about her. Thanks, Jane, lol!!
Today, we went to tour a school for my eldest. He is really into theater and arts so we checked out a charter school that has a heavy emphasis on arts. It is amazing! Dance, drama, photography, pottery, drawing, etc... He would be like a fish in water there. Unfortunately, one only gets in through lottery and for 7 graders, there are only 6-7 spaces open. We applied and shall see. If he stays where he is now, he will be fine but would blossom at this other school.
A balmy 60 today here... it's hard imagining others still experiencing below freezing temps and snow/ice.
I hope today's old lady shopping trip went as smoothly as can be. I hate knowing that you are feeling so rotten and still need to put up with this weekly exhausting chore.
Are you able to eat a little more? Sleeping?
Sending all the healing vibes I have your way. And sun. Or at least warmer temps; that would help I am sure.
It was 80 yesterday and it felt great, today it was 30 and icing. What the heck is wrong wrong with North Carolina. Anybody else get weird random weather like that?
Lia, you wouldn't believe how sneaky they are. Lissa is just dropped in front of the house and I have no way to reach her mother. I've been SO sick, she has finally given me two days break. The old lady and her shopping..OMFG. 300 pounds of cat food this week and 29 heavy bags of chicken and beef also for the cats. Most of it rots. I have begged her to stop it. But, she won't and I can't watch an 82 year old on that ice, she could be seriously hurt. So I carry it. And still more today. The whole backseat full. She's insane and there is nothing I can do to make her stop. Pin is gone. Her relatives took her out of state for psychiatric treatment. I have told these people over and over that I can not do this anymore, but, every day it's the same. The school runs, worrying about the child's laundry and the heavy lifting and endless store trips, it's beyond too much.
Jane, I was going to be a hooker, but, I can't live on two dollars a week.
Melissa, I haven't been holding food down this week and no sleep either. At least the endless nights are quiet. Old ladies don't go out late.
DD, is there someone you trust with whom you could barter something with? A reading in exchange for one old lady trip?
Get well DD sending healthy vibes.....Marilyn
What I wish for you my friend is improved health, so I'm sending my healthiest thoughts to you wrapped in a big hug!
Hope you start to feel better i dont know you but if i was close i take the old lady for a ride lol Good luck and good vibes to you.
Karen from Illinois
I agree with Connie - anyone you can ask to help out? I'm pretty sure the answer is a big ol' NO or else this would be happening. Wasn't there a cousin that helped out a couple of times?
I am worried about you. Not eating, not sleeping, feeling this ill and looking after Lissa and your mom.
It's all very well looking after Lissa, at least you get some love in return. But your mum... I'd just crawl into bed and tell her that you are too sick to haul yourself out of the house. I'm sure she will find someone else, people like that always do.
I feel like the worst daughter in the world. I wish dan & I had a second car so I could come hone and help you more often.I'm sorry I'm not there to help you mom. :-(
I am late to the posting, but am wishing you all the (I picture it as green and blue) healing energy I can muster.
Of course it isn't right to drop Lissa off in front of your place and drive away, but I'm sure CPS would be no help, and I know you love her and worry about her, so what can you do?
The old lady is too much of a burden, though. Probably too inwardly focused to consider what she is doing to you, too. I can feel your pain on that one. My mother passed away in November, and I am just coming out from under the haze of her unhappiness. She ran me ragged for a long time, though I don't have the health issues you are battling. It has taken me this long to be able to feel like I have a life again, instead of devoting myself to her happiness/unhappiness. Probably much worse in your instance, as she was abusive to you and allowed abuse to you, all the years of your life.
She is sick, and I don't think there is any way to cure what she has.
Once again, I fall short of saying anything truly useful, and just wish you peace.
Christian
Sorry. Misspelling my own name today.
Christina
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