Lissa called her mother, but, her mom works in a town quite a ways from here and she wasn't able to leave or find anyone to come get Lis. Maybe she didn't quite grasp how bad it was. Or maybe she did. I don't know. Lissa kept calling her and finally told me she refused to call her again because she was 'mad' because the kid was bothering her at work. Mad. Are you kidding me?? I insisted she call one more time, because by this time I was on the floor and I couldn't get up. Her mom finally said she'd send her 'friend', I'll call him S, to pick up Lis and watch her. Lissa was crying because she didn't want to go with him. I told her to pipe down because I wouldn't let him watch my goldfish, let alone my kid. I do not judge people by their looks, but, when it comes to letting my grand daughter go off with them, I WILL judge. He just got out of prison, for who knows what, and he looks like a prison tatted, greasy, google eyed, meth head X-100. Uhh, how about NO!! No fucking way in hell. Lissa then called her Aunt Robin and within 15 minutes she was there to get her. I was in so much pain I couldn't think straight. Robin hadn't crossed my mind because I figured it should be her mother who handled things. (And according to our local social services. Those bastards.) How stupid was that? I know. Pretty stupid. It should have taken Robin about 25 minutes, but, she put the pedal to the metal. She must have heard the urgency in Lissa voice. Thank goodness for Aunt Robin, who is like a night and day difference to her sister. I shouldn't type that here, but, I am tired of it. Can you tell?
So, S, could go blow. Fuck that shit. I would have taken the kid to ER with me before I let her go off with that weird guy I only met once. As soon as they pulled out of the driveway, I started to feel better. Kid pain gone. I'll have to tell Lis that, she'll know I'm joking. But, the pain had been sort of bad and I thought another ulcer had blown. It was mid section pain and lower back thud, like labor, and heartburn with drenching sweat. The same symptoms that had led up to that horrible night before, when I almost died. I figured it would increase and I needed to get to ER before I couldn't. But, it subsided when I was able to finally keep my meds down. I had been out of my stomach meds for five days because the pharmacy fucked up. My doctors have told me not to be out of these meds for even one day. I had been warned. But, the pharmacy had fucked me around for five days and there was nothing I could do about it. I'd finally got them yesterday. I guess the doctors weren't kidding, because doing without them hurt..eventually. It hurt a lot. Not like that night my ulcer blew, but, close. More like that last stage of labor. This town has got to do something about their hospital and pharmacy connection! It's becoming ridiculous and I am not the only one complaining. The whole town is up in arms about it. It seems one person controls it all for all of us! It's a disgrace and a disaster waiting to happen. Living in a tiny town when you need medical supplies is not fun or funny. I'm going to try and attend the next town meeting where they address this problem. It's always on the agenda, it seems.
So, today, I feel a lot better, but, my lower back is still giving me fits. I am assuming now, that what I felt was unmedicated ulcer pain. Something I am not familiar with. It was a bitch. I have made a doctors appointment to be sure. I'm going to leave Lissa at Robin's where I know she's safe for one more night. I feel really bad for what she saw last night, I know she was scared. It was fairly bad. I'll call her after school. But, she loves being at Robin's with the cousins. I'm going to go read the news and gossip and see if anything interesting has happened, then go back to bed. I hope all of you are doing better than me. Though, I am thankful it didn't get worse. It's cold and raining today. I noticed my white pumpkin seeds are up, sprouting by the door. That's a good sign.
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Holy balls, woman! I am soooo glad you are better today; what a scary ordeal! Is it possible for you to order your meds with an online pharmacy so you never go without? Wow - we can all breathe a collective sigh of relief. White light and energy sent your way. I think the pumpkin seedlets sprouting were a good sign from Ma Nature. Whew.
Poor Lis, she was probably a mess. You're the only stability she has. Did you ever try to have your meds mailed to you? They will send a 3month supply with certain RX
Yikes. I had been having a really bad feeling, but kept telling myself not to panic or worry too much.
I am so glad that you have your meds now and are feeling better, though I feel cold, white fury at your pharmacy. I know there are shortages of medications everywhere, but there has to be a plan B for someone like you, who absolutely can't go without them. Is it possible for your doctor to make arrangements for an additional prescription to fill and have on hand so that this is very unlikely to happen again? It seems like your doctor could make that happen once they hear how things were, and that it was not your fault for not getting your request in on time.
I work in a hospital, and I know medication shortages have been a big issue everywhere for many months. The way I understand it, many of the smaller manufacturers of pharmaceuticals have been bought up by larger ones, so there are fewer sources. All it takes is an FDA inspection that falls short in that factory, to close down production of everything there. Sometimes it's also an issue with getting ingredients from a third world country. I think if the medication is that important to your survival, (and we know it is) you need to have a backup supply in hand.
I'm not saying that ineptness on the part of the local store is not part of the picture, but that it's a combination of things.
And a big WTF to Lissa's mom!
Christina
MaryX2, online? I wonder..I need to look into that maybe. Thanks for the energy.
Island, I will look into it. Thanks. Poor little Lis was trying to help me with cold cloths and things. She WAS scared. I feel awful for that.
Christina, Thanks for the explanation, I need to find out more. It's a tiny town and we're used to doing without city things, but, my gawd. This pharmacy situation is absurd.
And hell yes, WTF with her mom?? It pisses me off. I wish I could blog all that is happening there, but, I can't right now. It's a bad situation and I am glad Lis is here most of the time, even if I have no legal say so. DHS makes me so mad.
BTW, her dad (new dad) lives here in town. I am not allowed to send her there without me anymore or I would have called them. They would have been there for me. He was here yesterday bike riding with Lis. The fact that I can't send her home with him pisses me the fuck off. I can send her off with some strange meth head, but, not her dad. WTF? Why? Because mom doesn't like him anymore.
Boy, when the crazies come out, the shit really hits the fan. You have more stuff in your life than anyone should have to handle. I couldn't even handle just the stomach stuff. You need to get a shaman, or whoever, to cleanse your life or whatever they do. Girl, you need help. I would tell you to take it easy but we all know these things are not caused by you and there is so much you really can't control. I'll be thinking about you and hoping for the best and sending good vibes. Hope some of the things get better fast so you can relax some.
I need to send you a long email sometime. Have not been on much for months. In the fall I was in bed in pain with what I thought were my stomach ulcers, finally went in hospital in Jan for week, where I learned it was a twisted and kinked small intestine instead. They sent me home after a week and I came back after another week for a 3 and a half week stay including the surgery. Then left at home, via taxi, with no help which was terribly hard for over a month because I couldn't do anything. Well, I'm good at enduring dreadful pain and good at lying in bed with IV s in both arms and a naso gastric tube up my nose and down my stomach. I got patches for the nicotine fits, no food, no drinks just ivs.
living in Germany has its advantages - no matter how tiny your town: if it has a pharmacy (and if you are living in a town, it got at least one), your meds will be there in 12h or less. Most of the times in 4h or less.
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