Breathe....Eric.......Rest In peace and rock on forever

I hope you will excuse me from blogging for a short time. I have always told you the truth about my life, and I find no reason to lie to you now. My son died tonight. It was a strange death. The coronor and the sheriff have just left, and they asked me to tell them about my son. Here is what I told them..
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Eric was beyond just talented, his talent (not shown in this video where he was just messing about) was well known and original. He loved being on stage, composing a great body of original work, which was really good, not just a mom's opinion..it really was. And he loved his daughter. He lived life to the fullest and had many many friends and good times and moments of fleeting fame..but, his lows were as magnificant as his highs. True artists and creative genius's are often that way. It was most likely a self inflicted accident. No one found him on time.
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How can I blog this, you ask? How can I not? Eric, if you're reading this, yes I do find it morbidly amusing that you died with your beloved computer on, playing music. It was only a few hours ago. At first I went through the typical mom reaction, dropping to my knees in a half faint, sceaming "NOOOOOOOOO!." I fell down the stairs, the only thing that kept me from driving into a pole on the way to his house was that I had his child with me. I left Liss with my mom and went. The officials were investigating. It looked like CSI. I was not allowed into the "death scene" until I told the sherrif I would not freak out, but, I would not belive it until I saw him. So he said if I promised not to touch the scene, I could look. There he was...so close, yet, gone. He was laying face up, on the floor, his head propped against the wall, computer blaring.....a calm look on his face and his eyes closed. I wanted to yell "Wake up, stop fucking around!" But, it was also clear, he was gone. Gone is his drama that irritated me so (but, thankfully I always remained patient), gone is his intelligent banter and sense of humor that caused me pee myself laughing. Gone is his future music. Gone is his daughters adored father.
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I am home now, and watching his videos and remembering. I am waiting for my daughter and thinking of arrangements. Funny, I always thought I'd leave these kids to figure out my funeral..not this. I have a wonderful daughter, a daughter in law I love and a beautiful grandaughter who looks amazingly like her father. I will be back soon, because life goes on. It just does. Thank you for all your thoughts. Peace.