The Honeysuckle is a weird flower. I think it's called a suckle because it blooms and then sends out a shoot with another blosssom that develops. The parent blossom eventually dies and the youngster takes over, sending out it's own young shoots. Kind of like families.*
I miss my son, I was thinking today..I used to open this door and yell "Hey, Eric, I cut off my leg with the chainsaw, I'm bleeding to death!" He'd yell back "That's nothing, you should see my leg, I was up all night with the pain!" We were making fun of my mother, of course. Her pain is always greater and anything you're afflicted with, she has worse. She just told me she thinks she has a Kidney stone and pointed and asked "Did it hurt here, or here??" I'm like, no and no, but, you're most welcome to them. I don't want it anymore. Then she got distracted by something else and forgot about it. Sigh. Now I can cut off my leg with the chainsaw and no one will notice. I miss that.
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Eric wherever you are..I am singing "I beg your pardon, I never promised you a big hard on." (La la, my mother's favorite tune, that we'd screw up on purpose.)
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i'm sorry DD (do you mind i call you that? you'll always be dd to me!!) i know what it's like to lose somebody you're very close to.(not a child though.. ever since i was a kid i always said that's one thing no mother should have to do.. bury her own) but i hope you're feeling better. the pain may never go away, but you'll always have the memories
DD is fine by me. Time heals, it really does.I don't cry or rant every day like I did. I can keep his photos out and look at them now. He was drama, that boy, but he could make me laugh. No one knows you like your children.
LOL example of my mother..when I called her from the hospital, she screamed, OMG you wrecked the car! Who's going to take me to the store??? I said, no, no, it's my kidney..she's said "My kidneys hurt too, I had a bad time last night, my back hurt." She went on and on until I just hung up. I was laying there with a foley up my pee hole and an IV, for christ sake. She's so annoying.
hahaha oh jeez. your mom reminds me of my grandmother. we always tell people to NEVER ask "how are you?" hahaha. too funny. the day my mom gave birth to me she called her in the hospital and complained that her back hurt! i was 9lbs5oz and took 3 days to come out! lol. anyhow i admire your strength. i lost my dad 4 years ago (OD.. he was my best friend and only 47) and i still cry and rant all the time (thankfully it's usually to myself) i wish i could be as strong as you!
steph (anon 1:03..even tho it's only 11:23?? lol)
steph, it's rough losing someone who knows you like that. I know. It seems unfair. Do you ever feel guilty because it was him and not you? I went through that stage.
The day I gave birth to my 8 pound daughter (my son weiged 9.3) I stopped at my mom's house to drop off my son. I had waited through over 30 hours of labor at home and was starting to crown. I wanted a natural birth and it was rough. She came out to the car and took one look at me and said "I had a belly ache last nigh, it was the most painful thing I ever felt. I was up all night..bla bla." I told my husband to step on it or die.
DD- I never thought to ask if you mind if I call you DD. Glad Anon 1:03 mentioned it.
DD- When you were speaking of your son I thought he was in another state or something. I'll never be able to fully express the pain I feel for you & your familly. I hope this comment was ok to post,because I don't want to upset you.
Hey you all want a piece of handy info? If you read all posts before you comment on anything,you won't duplicate already said comments as I've done.
"No one knows you like your children."
Something Kate Gosselin will learn first hand when her kids start doing their "tell all" books about her.
10 doll, I pretend my son is in his beloved Hollywood where he resided part time. I just pretend he's still there, playing in the band in the clubs, partying on the beach with blond bimbos and such. I still keep his MSN open, like I'm going to get my daily message. (sup? lol) It's stupid, but, it helps.
Kate Gosselin..god, at least a few of her kids are going to hate her. Really hate her. I'm of the opinion that most kids hate their mothers at times, but, her kids..man. She's going to know real deep hate. The kind that can't be fixed. She sold them. You can't fix that.
LOL your stories about your mom remind me of my grandmother. But as big of pain in the asses they are, once they're gone you'll have a good laugh (and tear) at the stories/memories of them.
I'm about to have my first child in a few weeks (a boy), and your stories about Eric, Lissa, and the rest of your family really make me look forward to being a mom and (hopefully) one day a grandmother. There will always be good, bad and tragic, but there will also always be love, strength and memories. I can't wait to cherish every second of motherhood...I can tell you did DD.
Congrats. You are about to embark on the most amazing journey. Keep me posted.
Thanks! I definitely will!
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